(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 5 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130nsan, \u00f6n\u00fcnde ak\u0131p giden hayata tutunmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken ister istemez \u00e7ok kez de\u011fi\u015fir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Olaylar de\u011fi\u015fir, mekanlar de\u011fi\u015fir, karakterler de\u011fi\u015fir, insan\u0131n kendi de\u011fi\u015fir o an i\u00e7inde<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bulunmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 kal\u0131ba uyabilmek i\u00e7in. De\u011fi\u015fim her zaman belli etmez kendini; bir g\u00fcn i\u015fe<\/p>\n\n\n\n
giderken ba\u015fka bir yoldan ge\u00e7eriz, her zaman kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z parf\u00fcm\u00fc de\u011fi\u015ftiririz, en<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sevdi\u011fimiz yemek de\u011fi\u015fir, her zaman gitti\u011fimiz yol de\u011fi\u015ftirir bazen kendini. K\u00f6\u015fede yeni bir<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7ar bazen, her g\u00fcn ezdi\u011fimiz kald\u0131r\u0131m\u0131n ta\u015flar\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fir birden. De\u011fi\u015fim g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fc<\/p>\n\n\n\n
de\u011fildir her zaman, bir sabah kalk\u0131p geriye bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda fark ederiz ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 koydu\u011fumuz<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n eskisi kadar rahatlatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. \u0130nsan al\u0131\u015f\u0131r de\u011fi\u015fmeye, al\u0131\u015fmak zorunda kal\u0131r. \u00d6nce<\/p>\n\n\n\n
y\u00fczler de\u011fi\u015fir, sonra sesler, bitti san\u0131lan bir hik\u00e2ye yeniden ba\u015flar, devam etti\u011fi san\u0131lan bir<\/p>\n\n\n\n
c\u00fcmleye birden nokta konur bazen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00fcm bunlara zaman deriz. G\u00fcnah ke\u00e7imizdir zaman, zaman her \u015feyi de\u011fi\u015ftirir, bazen<\/p>\n\n\n\n
zaman bitirir, bazen ba\u015flat\u0131r, bazen unutturur, bazen hat\u0131rlat\u0131r zaman.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zaman de\u011fi\u015ftirir sahiden. Bazen de yorulur zaman. D\u00fcn ve bug\u00fcn aras\u0131ndaki mesafe<\/p>\n\n\n\n
k\u0131sal\u0131r, yar\u0131n ile bug\u00fcn kar\u0131\u015f\u0131r, saniyeler saatler, saatler saniyeler olur bazen. Ge\u00e7mi\u015f oldu\u011fu<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kadar yak\u0131n, gelecek g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc kadar uzak gelmez bazen. Zaman de\u011fi\u015ftirir sahiden, bazen de<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yer de\u011fi\u015ftirmeyi se\u00e7er birden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oysa insan, zaman\u0131 hep kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda duran bir \u015fey san\u0131r. Ge\u00e7mi\u015f arkas\u0131ndad\u0131r, gelecek<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00f6n\u00fcnde, bug\u00fcn ise ikisinin aras\u0131nda duran ince bir k\u00f6pr\u00fcd\u00fcr insan zihninde. Y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n uzakla\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u015feylerden, y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e yakla\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerlere gitti\u011fini sanar<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n insan<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sonra bir g\u00fcn bunun b\u00f6yle olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenir.Baz\u0131 insanlar hi\u00e7 gitmez, baz\u0131 \u015fehirler terk edildi\u011fi halde i\u00e7imizde ya\u015famaya devam<\/p>\n\n\n\n eder, soldu\u011funu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7i\u00e7ekler taze kal\u0131r, ge\u00e7ti\u011fini sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z mevsimler bir yaz gecesi<\/p>\n\n\n\n ufak bir esinti olur \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fczde. Baz\u0131 c\u00fcmleler s\u00f6ylendi\u011fi anda bitmez bazen, y\u0131llarca ayn\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n yank\u0131yla d\u00f6n\u00fcp durur insan\u0131n i\u00e7inde. Zaman ilerler ama baz\u0131 anlar yerinden k\u0131p\u0131rdamaz, ayn\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n mevsimde bekleyen bir a\u011fa\u00e7 gibi, ayn\u0131 k\u00f6\u015fede unutulmu\u015f bir e\u015fya gibi, ayn\u0131 sat\u0131rda bekleyen<\/p>\n\n\n\n bir kelime gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Belki de bu y\u00fczden, bazen y\u0131llar \u00f6nce ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f bir g\u00fcn\u00fc bug\u00fcnden daha net hat\u0131rlar\u0131z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc zaman her \u015feyi yan\u0131nda g\u00f6t\u00fcrmez; baz\u0131 \u015feyleri oldu\u011fu yerde b\u0131rak\u0131r. Giden biz oluruz<\/p>\n\n\n\n ve i\u015fte o zaman yer de\u011fi\u015ftirir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Eskiden i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7ti\u011fimiz zaman, bu kez i\u00e7imizden ge\u00e7meye ba\u015flar. G\u00fcnler takvimde<\/p>\n\n\n\n de\u011fil, omuzlar\u0131m\u0131zda birikir. Saatler duvarda de\u011fil, g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm\u00fczde a\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131r. Beklemek bir s\u00fcre<\/p>\n\n\n\n olmaktan \u00e7\u0131kar; bir mek\u00e2na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. \u0130nsan bazen kendi i\u00e7inde bekleyen biri olur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Belki de b\u00fcy\u00fcmek dedi\u011fimiz \u015fey, zaman\u0131n h\u0131zlanmas\u0131 de\u011fil zaman\u0131n yer<\/p>\n\n\n\n de\u011fi\u015ftirmesidir. D\u00fcn\u00fcn bug\u00fcne, bug\u00fcn\u00fcn yar\u0131na kar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 de\u011fil hepsinin ayn\u0131 anda insan\u0131n<\/p>\n\n\n\n i\u00e7inde ya\u015famaya ba\u015flamas\u0131d\u0131r belki b\u00fcy\u00fcmek. O y\u00fczden baz\u0131 vedalar y\u0131llar sonra ger\u00e7ekle\u015fir,<\/p>\n\n\n\n baz\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmalar hen\u00fcz ya\u015fanmadan tan\u0131d\u0131k gelir, y\u0131llard\u0131r bilinen bir y\u00fcz birden<\/p>\n\n\n\n yabanc\u0131la\u015f\u0131r. \u0130nsan, bir g\u00fcn aynaya bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn de\u011fil zaman\u0131n de\u011fi\u015fti\u011fini anlar, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc<\/p>\n\n\n\n art\u0131k ge\u00e7mi\u015f geride de\u011fildir, gelecek ileride de\u011fildir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130kisi de ayn\u0131 kalbin i\u00e7inde sessizce yan yana oturuyordur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Belki de hayat, zaman\u0131 durdurabilmek de\u011fildir hi\u00e7bir zaman. Hayat, onun yer<\/p>\n\n\n\n de\u011fi\u015ftirdi\u011fini fark etti\u011fimiz o sessiz ana yeti\u015febilmektir. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baz\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fimler g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez ve<\/p>\n\n\n\n en derin olanlar\u0131, zaman\u0131 bile yerinden eder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n P\u0131nar Yaman<\/p>\n\n\n\n