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(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 3 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gece, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n yery\u00fcz\u00fcne inmi\u015f g\u00f6lgesinden ba\u015fka bir \u015fey de\u011fildir. \u00d6zellikle etrafta<\/p>\n\n\n\n
oyalanacak kimsenin kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcn son saatlerinde, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n koyu g\u00f6lgesine s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kendili\u011fimiz. Saklanacak yerimiz yoktur kendimizden; art\u0131k sonu gelmez bu \u00fccra<\/p>\n\n\n\n
y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015flerin karanl\u0131k sokaklar\u0131nda, biz bizeyiz. G\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131yla s\u00fcsledi\u011fimiz b\u00fct\u00fcn<\/p>\n\n\n\n
siyah beyaz yalanlar, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc karard\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ayak bileklerimizden uzayan g\u00f6lgeler misali a\u011f\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a\u011f\u0131r asfalta serilir. \u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden gece y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fleri biraz tekinsizdir. Sokak ba\u015flar\u0131nda<\/p>\n\n\n\n
parlayan turuncu lambalar, t\u0131pk\u0131 birer savc\u0131 gibi kendimize bile itiraf edemedi\u011fimiz o a\u011f\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yenilgileri, g\u00fcn i\u00e7inde fark etmekten ka\u00e7\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z pek \u00e7ok s\u00f6ylemi ve duymaya bile cesaret<\/p>\n\n\n\n
edemedi\u011fimiz nicelerini do\u011frudan kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131za f\u0131s\u0131ldar. B\u00f6ylece insan, en \u00e7ok da kendi<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sessizli\u011finin ortas\u0131nda uyanan o uykusuz yabac\u0131dan korkar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u00f6ylesine tekinsiz gece y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015flerimin bilmem ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131s\u0131ndayd\u0131m. Ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131n \u0131slak<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kald\u0131r\u0131mdaki yank\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 dinlerken geceye dair d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerim, en az karanl\u0131\u011fa b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f \u015fu<\/p>\n\n\n\n
g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc kadar u\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z sar\u0131yordu zihnimi. \u0130zin verdim. Zihnime \u00e7\u00f6ken geceye ve<\/p>\n\n\n\n
benli\u011fimi saran yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa, sessizce izin verdim. Bu his, ruhumun yabanc\u0131s\u0131 oldu\u011fu yeni bir<\/p>\n\n\n\n
y\u00fck de\u011fil; uzun zamand\u0131r a\u015finas\u0131 oldu\u011fum, i\u00e7imdeki gecenin ta kendisiydi. \u00d6nceleri bu<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sessizli\u011fi bir s\u0131\u011f\u0131nak bellemek ve sokaklar boyu hi\u00e7 bitmeyen ad\u0131mlar\u0131n i\u00e7inde kaybolmak<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nefesimi keserdi. Her ad\u0131mda biraz daha s\u0131zlard\u0131 i\u00e7im. Ayaklar\u0131m yere sert basmaz; bir hu\u015fu<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i\u00e7inde titrerdi kuru bedenim. Vaktini, derdini, nereden geldi\u011fini tam olarak kestiremedi\u011fim<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bir tela\u015f i\u00e7indeydi zihnim. Korkard\u0131m. Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma meydan okuyan bu karanl\u0131ktan, ruhumun<\/p>\n\n\n\n
her bir zerresine dek korkard\u0131m. Sanki varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m, kayna\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile kestiremedi\u011fim a\u011f\u0131r bir y\u00fck<\/p>\n\n\n\n
alt\u0131nda ezilirdi. Bu ezici a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda kim oldu\u011fumu bile se\u00e7emez; \u0131slak bir cadde<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kenar\u0131nda usulca \u00e7\u00f6kerdim kald\u0131r\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7amurlu ta\u015f\u0131na. Pantolonumdan i\u00e7eri s\u0131zard\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131n o<\/p>\n\n\n\n
dilsiz so\u011fu\u011fu. \u0130rkilirdim. Bir s\u00fcre \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm yerde kal\u0131r, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerin so\u011fu\u011fa kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p ruhum<\/p>\n\n\n\n
olmas\u0131na izin verirdim. Ne zaman ki sokaktan ge\u00e7en tek t\u00fck arabalar\u0131n farlar\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcme vursa; o<\/p>\n\n\n\n
vakit beni uyu\u015fturan bu halden silkinir, evimi hat\u0131rlar ve buruk bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyle aya\u011fa<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kalkard\u0131m. Kim bilir ne zamand\u0131r do\u011fu\u015funu g\u00f6remedi\u011fim g\u00fcn\u00fc, b\u00f6ylece bir kez daha<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu gece, eve d\u00f6nmenin tela\u015f\u0131 yerini soka\u011f\u0131n koyu ve dilsiz a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pantolonuma s\u0131zan o so\u011fuk nem kan\u0131ma, asfalt\u0131n \u00e7amurlu grisi zihnime kar\u0131\u015f\u0131rken etimle<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kemi\u011fimle bu tekinsiz soka\u011fa yay\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissettim. \u0130\u00e7imdeki uykusuz yabanc\u0131yla girdi\u011fimsava\u015f hen\u00fcz bitmemi\u015fti; fakat zaman\u0131n getirdi\u011fi o yorgun a\u015final\u0131kla bir nebze dinginle\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130kimiz de \u0131slak kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7atlaklar\u0131nda, o turuncu lamban\u0131n c\u0131l\u0131z \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda eriyip<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sokakla bir olmu\u015ftuk. Art\u0131k g\u00fcn\u00fc ka\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyor; g\u00fcnd\u00fczden d\u00fc\u015fmenin o<\/p>\n\n\n\n
dilsiz huzuru i\u00e7inde kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum geceye.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eimdi, ben de o gecenin asfalta kaz\u0131nm\u0131\u015f sessiz bir par\u00e7as\u0131yd\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Eda Demiral<\/p>\n\n\n\n G\u00f6rsel kayna\u011f\u0131, yapay zeka taraf\u0131ndan olu\u015fturulmu\u015ftur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201c\u015eimdi, ben de o gecenin asfalta kaz\u0131nm\u0131\u015f sessiz bir par\u00e7as\u0131yd\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6343,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,4,1],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n