Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 3 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Perdenin aral\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan s\u0131zan o soluk g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131k, masan\u0131n da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k y\u00fczeyinde birikmi\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n
toz zerrelerini \u00f6zenle se\u00e7ip ayd\u0131nlat\u0131yordu. Hemen ba\u015f ucumda yan\u0131p s\u00f6nen ye\u015fil \u0131\u015f\u0131k ise<\/p>\n\n\n\n
gecenin \u00e7oktan a\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 f\u0131s\u0131ldar gibiydi: Saat \u00fc\u00e7… D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler i\u00e7in olduk\u00e7a d\u00fcr\u00fcst ve<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00e7\u0131plak bir vakitti. B\u00f6yle zamanlarda, do\u011frusu pek \u00e7ok gecemde oldu\u011fu gibi, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kap\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7almay\u0131 beklemez, usulca i\u00e7eri s\u0131zard\u0131. G\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn acelecili\u011finde \u00fczerini \u00f6rtt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm her<\/p>\n\n\n\n
duygu, ay \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sab\u0131rla ad\u0131n\u0131 isterdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sokaklar\u0131n kimsesizli\u011fi ve d\u0131\u015far\u0131n\u0131n sa\u011f\u0131r edici sessizli\u011fi kulaklar\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131nlatmaya<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ba\u015flay\u0131nca yorgan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan usulca s\u0131yr\u0131ld\u0131m. Odamda yaln\u0131zd\u0131m; bir pazar gecesinin<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tan\u0131d\u0131k huzursuzlu\u011fu kadar kesindi bu. Fakat baz\u0131 geceler yaln\u0131zl\u0131k, sandalyeleri bo\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n
b\u0131rakmaz; t\u0131pk\u0131 bu gece ay \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6zenle ayd\u0131nlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 o ah\u015fap sandalyede oldu\u011fu gibi. Belki<\/p>\n\n\n\n
de y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesinden kalma bir g\u00f6lge yahut isimlendiremedi\u011fim bir a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k beni ziyarete<\/p>\n\n\n\n
gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sandalyeyi dolduran o isimsiz so\u011fukluk, yal\u0131n ayak tabanlar\u0131mdan t\u0131rman\u0131p tam da<\/p>\n\n\n\n
unutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m o ke\u015fkelerin d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi\u011fi bo\u011faz\u0131ma yerle\u015fiyordu. Bu d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yutkunduk\u00e7a batan, sustuk\u00e7a b\u00fcy\u00fcyen bir t\u00fcrdendi. Kendini hissettirmesi i\u00e7in \u00f6zel bir \u00e7abaya<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ihtiyac\u0131 yoktu. Zira gecenin gittik\u00e7e daha da koyula\u015fan bu saatlerinde, insan\u0131n kendisinden de<\/p>\n\n\n\n
saklanabilece\u011fi hi\u00e7bir k\u00f6\u015fe kalm\u0131yordu. Bu y\u00fczdendir ki ka\u00e7maktan vazge\u00e7tim. Oday\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kaplayan so\u011fuklu\u011fa, kulaklar\u0131mdaki o \u0131srarc\u0131 \u00e7\u0131nlamaya ve i\u00e7imde kabaran, ad\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n
koyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m her duyguya biraz daha yer a\u00e7t\u0131m. Yer a\u00e7t\u0131k\u00e7a fark ettim; sandalyedeki a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k<\/p>\n\n\n\n
daha da g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr oldu. Bir bedeni yoktu. Bi\u00e7imsizdi; g\u00f6lgeyi and\u0131ran koyulu\u011fu ve varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 o b\u00fcy\u00fck yoklu\u011fu ay \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kendine \u00e7ekiyor, b\u00f6ylece odadaki t\u00fcm \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 oldu\u011fu gibi<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yutuyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A\u011f\u0131r ad\u0131mlarla kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ge\u00e7tim. Att\u0131\u011f\u0131m her ad\u0131mda, biraz daha \u00fcrperdim; tan\u0131d\u0131k bir<\/p>\n\n\n\n
histi bu. Aram\u0131zdaki mesafe kapand\u0131k\u00e7a o karanl\u0131k sil\u00fcetin ard\u0131nda bir \u015feyler parlamaya<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ba\u015flad\u0131; belki s\u00f6yleyemedi\u011fim c\u00fcmleler, belki de haf\u0131zam\u0131n derinliklerinde kaybolmu\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n
resimlerdi. Sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn o ihtimaller tek bir surette toplanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hi\u00e7 s\u00fcr\u00fclmemi\u015f tarlalar\u0131n, hi\u00e7<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f kap\u0131lar\u0131n ve vaktinden \u00f6nce d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f yapraklar\u0131n birikintisiydi kar\u015f\u0131mda duran.<\/p>\n\n\n\n