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(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 3 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir yazar\u0131n kalbine girmek, yaz\u0131n\u0131n haf\u0131zas\u0131nda m\u00fch\u00fcrlenmeyi kabul etmektir. Bir<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yazar \u00e2\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011funda hik\u00e2ye t\u00fcm\u00fcyle y\u00f6n de\u011fi\u015ftirir; a\u015fk\u0131n yurdu art\u0131k g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs kafesi<\/p>\n\n\n\n
de\u011fil, m\u00fcrekkebin de\u011fdi\u011fi sonsuz kelimelerdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130nsanlar a\u015fk\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bir kalbe boyar, bir foto\u011fraf karesine s\u0131\u011fd\u0131r\u0131r yahut<\/p>\n\n\n\n
hat\u0131ralarla dolu an\u0131 kutular\u0131nda saklar. Oysa bir yazar\u0131n a\u015fk\u0131, \u00e7er\u00e7eveleri<\/p>\n\n\n\n
reddedendir; saklanacak bir hat\u0131ra de\u011fil, suland\u0131k\u00e7a geni\u015fleyecek g\u00fcne\u015fli bir<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bah\u00e7edir. \u00c7i\u00e7ekleri daima susuzdur yazar\u0131n ve kelimeler t\u00fckenmez \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olmu\u015f bir<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yazar i\u00e7in. Tasvir edilecek ne \u00e7ok \u015fey vard\u0131r kalbinde yer etmi\u015f o narin surette:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
R\u00fczg\u00e2r de\u011fmi\u015f tela\u015fl\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131, \u0131slanm\u0131\u015f kirpiklerin sessiz yas\u0131, al al olmu\u015f utanga\u00e7<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yanaklar\u0131… G\u00fcl\u00fcnce k\u0131s\u0131lan g\u00f6zleri bir sat\u0131r ba\u015f\u0131, yana\u011f\u0131nda derinle\u015fen gamzesi ise<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tamamlanmam\u0131\u015f metnin \u00fc\u00e7 noktas\u0131d\u0131r. Bu y\u00fczdendir ki \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olmu\u015f bir yazar\u0131n kalemi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a\u015fk\u0131n bitmek bilmeyen zerrelerine usulca dokunur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yaz\u0131, bir yazar\u0131n tutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 an\u0131lar\u0131 de\u011fil; onlar\u0131 tutamama korkusuyla<\/p>\n\n\n\n
y\u00fczle\u015fti\u011fi yerdir. Zira her haf\u0131za biraz nank\u00f6r ve yitirmeye meyillidir. G\u00fcnler ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sevgilinin g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcndeki o ince \u00e7izgi ve kendisine dair hat\u0131rlanmaya de\u011fer ne varsa her<\/p>\n\n\n\n
biri hissettirmeden silinir. Yazar ise zaman\u0131n bu sessiz h\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda direnir;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nitekim bah\u00e7esi soldurmamaya yemin etti\u011fi \u00e7i\u00e7eklerle doludur. Menek\u015fesinden<\/p>\n\n\n\n
zakkumuna dek serpilen bu bah\u00e7e, bir zamanlar yery\u00fcz\u00fcne misafir gibi inen o tarifsiz<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sevginin g\u00fcne\u015finde ye\u015fermi\u015ftir. \u0130\u015fte, o g\u00fcnden beri ne m\u00fcrekkep ne de kirlenmeyi<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bekleyen temiz sayfalar yazar\u0131n masas\u0131ndan eksilmemi\u015ftir. Parmak u\u00e7lar\u0131 s\u0131zlayana<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ve bile\u011fi a\u011fr\u0131yana dek d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr c\u00fcmleler k\u00e2\u011f\u0131da. Bu \u00f6yle alelade bir an\u0131 tutma \u00e7abas\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n
de\u011fil; \u00f6ld\u00fcrmeden, soldurmadan yaratma \u0131srar\u0131d\u0131r. Yazar\u0131n a\u015fk\u0131, tenin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 terk<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n edip k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131n so\u011fuklu\u011funa ge\u00e7ti\u011fi an \u015fekil de\u011fi\u015ftirir; art\u0131k sevgili, etten ve kemikten bir fani<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n de\u011fil, virg\u00fcle as\u0131l\u0131 bir i\u00e7 \u00e7eki\u015f ve noktada m\u00fch\u00fcrlenen bir kaderdir.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Yazar \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olmu\u015fsa e\u011fer a\u015fk \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc tan\u0131maz; \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fck ba\u015f g\u00f6sterir. Kelimelerde<\/p>\n\n\n\n can bulan bir a\u015fk\u0131n i\u015fareti ne k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya boyanm\u0131\u015f kalbe s\u0131\u011far ne de kapa\u011f\u0131 kapanm\u0131\u015f an\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n kutusunun havas\u0131z karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na… Yazar \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olunca a\u015fk bitmez t\u00fckenmez bir yarat\u0131ma<\/p>\n\n\n\n d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Mum erimez, kalem d\u00fc\u015fmez ve k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t eksilmez masadan. Sulanacak \u00e7ok \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi var<\/p>\n\n\n\n ya\u2026 Da\u011f\u0131n\u0131kt\u0131r bir yazar\u0131n masas\u0131. C\u00fcmleler \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131r, paragraflar geni\u015fler ve a\u015fk bir kitap<\/p>\n\n\n\n i\u00e7inde okunur; her sat\u0131r, yeniden do\u011fu\u015ftur.\u015eayet bir yazar \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olmu\u015fsa sana… Korkma zaman\u0131n ge\u00e7mesinden. Kelimelere zaman<\/p>\n\n\n\n u\u011framaz; zira bir kez yaz\u0131lan, her okunu\u015fta yeniden \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131r bug\u00fcne. Korkma; senin \u00f6mr\u00fcn<\/p>\n\n\n\n takvim yapraklar\u0131nda de\u011fil, bir kitab\u0131n sayfalar\u0131nda sakl\u0131d\u0131r. \u0130ster binler okusun seni, isterse<\/p>\n\n\n\n sadece yazar\u0131n kalemi bilsin; fark etmez. Unutulmaz ve saklanmazs\u0131n. Sen o sat\u0131rlar\u0131n<\/p>\n\n\n\n aras\u0131nda, m\u00fcrekkebin sadakatine emanetsin. Kimse bilmese bile yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olacaks\u0131n. Korkma;<\/p>\n\n\n\n ebediyen sat\u0131rlarda nefes alacak, bir yazar\u0131n belle\u011finden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p sonsuzlu\u011fa kar\u0131\u015facaks\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Eda Demiral<\/p>\n\n\n\n