(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 2 dakikad\u0131r.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Karanl\u0131k bazen bir anda \u00e7\u00f6kmez; g\u00fcnlerin aras\u0131na s\u0131zar, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerin alt\u0131na yerle\u015fir, nefesini bile fark etmeden a\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r. Bir bakars\u0131n, ne zamand\u0131r i\u00e7inde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmedi\u011fin bir gece h\u00e2li var\u2026 \u0130\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n, ad\u0131n\u0131 koyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir karanl\u0131k. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130nsan bu karanl\u0131kta kendini \u00e7o\u011fu zaman yaln\u0131z san\u0131r; herkesin yolu daha ayd\u0131nl\u0131k, herkes \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa daha yak\u0131nm\u0131\u015f gibi gelir, kendi g\u00f6lgene tak\u0131l\u0131r, ad\u0131mlar\u0131n bile sessizli\u011fe g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcr. Ama karanl\u0131k, garip bir \u015fekilde sessizli\u011fi b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcr ve o sessizli\u011fin i\u00e7inde sevgi en ince f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131yla kendini duyurur. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sevgi, karanl\u0131\u011fa meydan okuyan parlak bir g\u00fcne\u015f de\u011fildir; karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ine usulca s\u00fcz\u00fclen s\u0131cak bir nefes gibidir. Bir anda parlamaz, yava\u015f\u00e7a \u0131s\u0131t\u0131r; teredd\u00fctle dokunur, ad\u0131m ad\u0131m geni\u015fler. T\u0131pk\u0131 bir mumun en beklenmedik anda titreyip oday\u0131 yeniden hat\u0131rlatmas\u0131 gibi\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bazen biri sana \u201cNas\u0131ls\u0131n?\u201d diye sorarken ger\u00e7ekten g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine bakar. Bazen bir dost, konu\u015fmana bile gerek kalmadan omzunu sana a\u00e7ar bazen bir anne yavrusunun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015far. Bazen de uzun s\u00fcredir duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir \u015fey olur: kendi sesin, kendi kalbin, kendi yumu\u015fakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n sana yeniden g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Karanl\u0131ktan \u00e7\u0131kmak i\u015fte b\u00f6yle ba\u015flar; b\u00fcy\u00fck s\u00f6zlerle de\u011fil, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck temaslarla\u2026 Ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015flarla de\u011fil, f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131larla\u2026 Sevginin acele etmeyen, sab\u0131rl\u0131 ak\u0131\u015f\u0131yla. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sevgi, yolun sonundaki \u0131\u015f\u0131k de\u011fildir; yolu y\u00fcr\u00fcyebilmeni sa\u011flayan g\u00fc\u00e7t\u00fcr.<\/strong> Dizlerin titrerken seni tutan, g\u00f6zlerin dolarken yan\u0131ndan ayr\u0131lmayan, nefesin daral\u0131rken \u201cdevam et\u201d diyen g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez bir eldir. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Sen onu unuttu\u011funu san\u0131rs\u0131n ama sevgi hi\u00e7 gitmemi\u015ftir; sadece beklemi\u015ftir yaralar\u0131n kabuk ba\u011flamas\u0131n\u0131, g\u00f6zlerinin karanl\u0131\u011fa al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131, yeniden kendine d\u00f6nmeni\u2026 Ve bir g\u00fcn fark etmeden elini uzat\u0131rs\u0131n. Belki birinin i\u00e7ten bir bak\u0131\u015f\u0131yla, belki kendine f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir \u201cDayan\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcyle, belki de sadece yorgunlu\u011funa yenilmeyip bir ad\u0131m daha att\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7in\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n Karanl\u0131k hemen \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclmez ama sevgi i\u00e7inden bir k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131m yakar. O k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131m hen\u00fcz yolu ayd\u0131nlatmasa da seni harekete ge\u00e7irir. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc karanl\u0131ktan \u00e7\u0131kmak, \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa ula\u015fmakla ilgili de\u011fildir asl\u0131nda; karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7indeyken bile sevgiye h\u00e2l\u00e2 lay\u0131k oldu\u011funu hat\u0131rlamakt\u0131r. Ve o an anlars\u0131n: seni karanl\u0131ktan \u00e7\u0131karan \u015fey \u0131\u015f\u0131k de\u011fildir, sevgidir. Birinin sana uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ya da senin kendine uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n o ince, k\u0131r\u0131lgan ama \u015fa\u015f\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 derecede g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc sevgi\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n Karanl\u0131kla sava\u015fmak zorunda de\u011filsin; bazen sadece sevgiye yaslanman yeter. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc karanl\u0131ktan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f, y\u00fcr\u00fcmekle de\u011fil, sevmeye yeniden cesaret etmekle ba\u015flar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yazar: Fato\u015f \u00d6lmez<\/p>\n\n\n\n