(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 4 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.) <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Size \u0130stanbul’un sakin bir \u015fehir oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yleyemem. Size \u0130stanbul’un sizi yormayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da s\u00f6yleyemem. \u0130stanbul hareketlidir, \u0130stanbul yorar lakin \u015funu s\u00f6yleyebilirim ki \u0130stanbul ya\u015famaya de\u011fer. Kendimi bildim bileli \u0130stanbul b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc gelmi\u015ftir bana. Kendimi bildim bileli \u0130stanbul’u ya\u015famam gerekiyormu\u015f, ilahi bir g\u00fc\u00e7 beni ona \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yormu\u015f gibi hissederim ve yine kendimi bildim bileli \u0130stanbul’u okudum, \u0130stanbul’u duydum. \u015eimdi ise ya\u015f\u0131yorum. 1940’lar\u0131n \u0130stanbul’unu ya\u015fayamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 fark\u0131ndayd\u0131m hep ama 2000’lerin \u0130stanbul’una da raz\u0131yd\u0131m. Ben \u0130stanbul’a raz\u0131yd\u0131m. Vedat T\u00fcrkali \u201cSen bize lay\u0131ks\u0131n.\u201d der \u0130stanbul i\u00e7in. Hep inanm\u0131\u015f\u0131md\u0131r; damarlar\u0131m\u0131zda akan kan kudretlidir ve \u0130stanbul bize atalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n emanetidir. \u0130stanbul nice devirler, nice h\u00fck\u00fcmranl\u0131klar, nice cengaverler g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr. Nice tarihe tan\u0131kl\u0131k etmi\u015f, nice tarihi elleriyle yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Bundand\u0131r ki her topra\u011f\u0131 anlaml\u0131d\u0131r, her topra\u011f\u0131 k\u0131ymetlidir ve g\u00f6z bebe\u011fidir nezdimce.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00d6zdemir Asaf, \u0130stanbul’u mart\u0131lar\u0131n kanatlar\u0131ndan seyretme \u015ferefine nail olmu\u015f. Ben olamad\u0131m. Mart\u0131lar k\u0131rg\u0131n u\u00e7uyor art\u0131k, kanatlar\u0131yla beyaza boyayam\u0131yorlar g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc pek ama biliyorum ki denk gelece\u011fim bir mart\u0131ya ve inand\u0131racak beni ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n hala var oldu\u011funa. K\u00fcsmedim, k\u00fcsmem de. Ne mart\u0131lara ne de kara \u00e7alan kanatlar\u0131na\u2026 ” K\u00f6pr\u00fcde fersiz g\u00f6zler a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle.” der Sabahattin Ali. Fersiz g\u00f6z \u00e7oktur art\u0131k \u0130stanbul’da ama k\u00f6pr\u00fcde \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle a\u00e7\u0131lmazlar. K\u00f6pr\u00fc ila\u00e7t\u0131r art\u0131k, k\u00f6pr\u00fc o g\u00f6zlerin d\u00fcnya tela\u015f\u0131ndan ka\u00e7\u0131p nefes ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer olmu\u015ftur. Denizi hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar k\u0131ymetlidir art\u0131k \u0130stanbul’un. Tepeleri hi\u00e7 a\u011f\u0131rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar misafir a\u011f\u0131rlar. <\/em>Ka\u00e7\u0131p gitmek isteyeni \u00e7oktur \u0130stanbul’un. <\/em>Deniz tutar onlar\u0131. Suyu da eskisi gibi tuzlu de\u011fildir \u0130stanbul’un lakin hala fanili\u011fi unutturacak mayho\u015fluktad\u0131r. Meydanlar\u0131 \u00e7ok g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fcd\u00fcr art\u0131k \u0130stanbul’un. Beyo\u011flu’nun darac\u0131k sokaklar\u0131 bayram g\u00fcn\u00fc gibidir her g\u00fcn, Taksim tek t\u00fck valslara \u015fahitlik etmez art\u0131k, Taksim vals\u0131n ta kendisi olmu\u015ftur. Bundand\u0131r ki \u00c7aml\u0131ca Tepesi g\u00f6zdedir. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k, yal\u0131nl\u0131k ve s\u00fck\u00fbn e\u015fi benzeri olmayan nadide bir m\u00fccevheratt\u0131r art\u0131k \u0130stanbul i\u00e7in. Necip Faz\u0131l bir dizesinde ” Ey\u00fcp \u00f6ks\u00fcz, Kad\u0131k\u00f6y s\u00fcsl\u00fc.” diyor. Bug\u00fcn Kad\u0131k\u00f6y s\u00fcsl\u00fc de\u011fil, tela\u015f i\u00e7inde. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcnl\u00fck d\u00fcnyan\u0131n birinci g\u00fcn\u00fcnde korkak, ikinci g\u00fcn\u00fcnde avare, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fcnde nank\u00f6r bir de d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kacakm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na bir \u015feyler yeti\u015ftirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor art\u0131k insano\u011flu. Sahip olmad\u0131klar\u0131 ger\u00e7ekleri benimseyen ve bunu ispatlamak u\u011fruna can\u0131n\u0131 di\u015fine takan, bir tebess\u00fcmden yahut h\u00e2l hat\u0131r sormaktan yoksun, gams\u0131zl\u0131ktan bitap d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f insanlar ge\u00e7iyor art\u0131k Kad\u0131k\u00f6y sokaklar\u0131ndan. Ellerinde nazik\u00e7e kasket \u015fapkalar\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan ve edepten mahcup y\u00fcr\u00fcyen \u0130stanbul beyefendileri; dizlerinin alt\u0131nda biten pileli etekleriyle, hokka burunlu babetleriyle al\u0131ml\u0131 al\u0131ml\u0131 s\u00fcz\u00fclen han\u0131mefendileri yok art\u0131k Kad\u0131k\u00f6y’\u00fcn. Ey\u00fcp, \u00f6ks\u00fcz de\u011fil g\u00f6z\u00fcmde. Ey\u00fcp huzurlu, Ey\u00fcp revnakl\u0131 lakin g\u00f6ze hitap eden cinsten de\u011fil revnakl\u0131 olu\u015fu. Sizi i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekti\u011finden\u2026 Bir han\u0131mefendiye rastlad\u0131m ge\u00e7en Ey\u00fcp’te. K\u00f6k k\u00f6ke d\u00fckkanlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndayd\u0131. Ye\u015filin en munis tonundan bir e\u015farb\u0131 vard\u0131. Umut oldu bana. Sanki Kad\u0131k\u00f6y’\u00fc s\u00fcsledi, fersiz g\u00f6zlere fer oldu. Sanki i\u00e7ime kondurdu\u011fu umut mart\u0131lar\u0131n kanatlar\u0131ndan \u0130stanbul’u izlettirdi bana. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordu. Kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k beklemeden g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyor, kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k ald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ise i\u00e7ine s\u0131\u011fmayan bir tevecc\u00fch\u00fcyle m\u00fcte\u015fekkir oluyordu. Arada s\u0131rada g\u00f6\u011fe bak\u0131yor derin derin nefes al\u0131p veriyordu. Sanki nefesi onun en k\u0131ymetlisiydi. G\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7i parlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar, fark\u0131ndayd\u0131 da olup bitenden. Arada s\u0131rada bo\u015flu\u011fa dal\u0131yor, gidiyor, kayboluyordu. Sanki nefsi en b\u00fcy\u00fck imtihan\u0131yd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Biliyordum ki; Ey\u00fcp’e u\u011frayan, heybemdeki benzetmelerle umuda yordu\u011fum han\u0131mefendi yaln\u0131z de\u011fil. Biliyorum ki Kad\u0131k\u00f6y bir g\u00fcn yine s\u00fcsl\u00fc olacak, huzur dolacak. \u0130stanbul’da bir fakir gencim. Orhan Veli’den tek noksan\u0131m a\u015fk. ”\u0130mk\u00e2ns\u0131z \u015fey \u015fiir yazmak, a\u015f\u0131ksan e\u011fer ; ve yazmamak aylardan nisansa.” diyor kendileri. Benim i\u00e7in imk\u00e2ns\u0131z de\u011fildir \u015fiir yazmak; \u0130stanbul’a mecnun g\u00f6zlerle bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mdand\u0131r belki. Belki de k\u00fcstah\u00e7a konu\u015fuyorumdur a\u015fk hakk\u0131nda. Yaln\u0131zca d\u00fc\u015fleyebilirim Galata’n\u0131n \u015fark\u0131lar m\u0131r\u0131ldad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00dcsk\u00fcdar’da \u00e7iseleyen ya\u011fmurun tenime nas\u0131l efsunlu i\u015fledi\u011fini. ”\u0130stanbul dedim de seni hat\u0131rlad\u0131m.” diyebilirim belki bir g\u00fcn ben de sarho\u015f g\u00f6nl\u00fcmle. \u015eimdi ne aylardan nisan ne de ben leylay\u0131m. <\/strong>Ama biliyorum ki \u0130stanbul, a\u015fk\u0131; a\u015fk \u0130stanbul’u g\u00fczelle\u015ftirir. A\u015fk m\u00fchim de\u011fildir. A\u015fk bulunur, ya\u015fan\u0131r, sevilir. \u0130stanbul bamba\u015fkad\u0131r. \u0130stanbul, cand\u0131r da canand\u0131r da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Eslem Uyar<\/p>\n\n\n\n