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(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 3 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
G\u00fcne\u015f g\u00fcne son vedalar\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131rken kalkt\u0131 K\u0131r\u0131k R\u00fcya Mimar\u0131 sandalyesinden. Dudaklar\u0131 aras\u0131nda bitmek bilmeyen \u015fikayetler, birbirine ge\u00e7en s\u00f6zler, zihninde birbirine giren d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler, koltu\u011funun alt\u0131nda birbirine girmi\u015f planlar e\u015fli\u011finde tuttu ba\u015fka bir zihnin yolunu ancak bu kez kendi i\u00e7indeki harabeydi mimarisini d\u00fczenleyece\u011fi. K\u0131r\u0131k kap\u0131lardan s\u0131zan karanl\u0131\u011fa ili\u015fti g\u00f6zleri. K\u0131r\u0131k duvarlardan s\u0131zan \u0131\u015f\u0131k \u00f6be\u011finde, harabeye d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f e\u015fyalarda, tavan\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f odalarda… \u00d6yle ya, belki de buydu k\u0131r\u0131k r\u00fcyalar\u0131 onarman\u0131n kefareti, belki de buydu i\u015fini kendini bu hale getirecek kadar sevmenin bedeli.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Her bir odada teker teker gezindi K\u0131r\u0131k R\u00fcya Mimar\u0131; kendi k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131klar\u0131nda, kendi endi\u015felerinde, kendi pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131nda, kendi an\u0131lar\u0131nda s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. Kendi g\u00fczel an\u0131lar\u0131nda s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc Mimar, onlar\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bu hale geldi\u011fi ana \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. Her bir k\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 not ald\u0131 \u00f6nce. Her bir \u00e7atla\u011f\u0131, her bir k\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131, her bir an\u0131y\u0131 not ald\u0131; tavandan s\u0131zan \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00e7atlaklardan s\u0131zan karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 not ald\u0131 Mimar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Kendi i\u00e7inde, kendi harabesinde kayboldu mimar; kendine ac\u0131d\u0131, kendine k\u0131zd\u0131, kendiyle gurur duydu. En nihayetinde toslad\u0131 duvara koltu\u011funda bir avu\u00e7 notla. O an t\u0131k\u0131rdad\u0131 t\u00fcm yap\u0131; mente\u015feler kendi a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetti, kap\u0131lar g\u0131c\u0131rdad\u0131, \u00e7atlaklardan s\u0131zan karanl\u0131k mimar\u0131 sararken \u00fcfledi eski, tan\u0131d\u0131k bir ses. Ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 duyam\u0131yordu Mimar. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6remiyor ancak hissediyordu varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnde. O an ayd\u0131nland\u0131 tekrar etraf\u0131 ve bir el uzand\u0131 etraf\u0131n\u0131 saran ya\u011fmur bulutlar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Belki de yaln\u0131z de\u011fildi koca mimarinin i\u00e7inde. Belki ba\u015fka R\u00fcya Mimarlar\u0131 da vard\u0131 koca d\u00fcnyada ve belki hepsi de ar\u0131yordu orada b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 notlar\u0131, belki de hepsi istiyordu kendi zihinlerinde onlara uzanan elleri. Belki de rehber, karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n aras\u0131ndan uzanan bir el de\u011fil, \u00e7ok daha eski bir \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131, ilk k\u0131r\u0131klardan ula\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir sesti. \u201cYaln\u0131z de\u011filsin\u201d, \u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc her mimar kendi enkaz\u0131n\u0131 ge\u00e7melidir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n enkaz\u0131na dokunabilmek i\u00e7in.\u201d dedi ses. Bir nefes misali i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekti rehberin s\u00f6zlerini ve etraf\u0131n\u0131 saran kara bulutlara \u00fcfledi Mimar. Belki de hakl\u0131yd\u0131 ses. Belki ba\u015fka R\u00fcya Mimarlar\u0131 da vard\u0131 d\u00fcnyada ve belki hepsi d\u00fczeltmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu kendi harabesini. Belki onlar\u0131n enkaz\u0131na yard\u0131m etmek i\u00e7in \u00f6nce kendi harabesini d\u00fczeltmesi gerekirdi Mimar\u2019\u0131n. <\/p>\n\n\n\n P\u0131nar Yaman<\/p>\n\n\n\n