(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k 3 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zihnimi kurcalayan bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ve yine ka\u00e7an uykular\u0131m. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum, hayat\u0131m\u0131 kurgulayacak olsam neleri de\u011fi\u015ftirmek isterdim, kendi hik\u00e2yemin kaderi benim elimde olsayd\u0131 nas\u0131l biri olarak yolculu\u011fuma devam edecektim? Sizin de akl\u0131n\u0131zdan ge\u00e7iyor mu ara ara bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler? Peki ya yazarlara ne demeli? Yazarlar\u0131n onlarca kahraman\u0131 kurgulayarak yazd\u0131klar\u0131 romanlar, hik\u00e2yeler ger\u00e7ekten kendi benliklerinden, zay\u0131fl\u0131klar\u0131ndan belki de arzular\u0131ndan ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z m\u0131d\u0131r? Yazar\u0131n kendine itiraf edemedi\u011fi \u015feylerin yans\u0131mas\u0131n\u0131 sat\u0131r aralar\u0131ndaki ya\u015famlarda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde yazar\u0131n hik\u00e2yesine de tan\u0131k olur muyuz acaba? T\u00fcm bu sorular\u0131n \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f yolunun tek bir kayna\u011f\u0131 var zihnimde: \u201cKurguya d\u00f6nen hayatlar daha az ger\u00e7ek midir?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130nsan baz\u0131 zamanlarda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 hik\u00e2yesini ya\u015famak ister ama hayat\u0131n ola\u011fan ak\u0131\u015f\u0131 i\u00e7inde kaybolurken kendi sesine odaklanmak o kadar zordur ki; kabu\u011funa \u00e7ekilip onun i\u00e7in yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olan\u0131 bekler sessizce ve \u00fcmitsizce. Tam da bu anlarda i\u00e7inde tutamad\u0131\u011f\u0131, hayk\u0131rmak istedi\u011fi her \u015fey kaleminden d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr ve kendi heybesinden okurlar\u0131na do\u011fru yola \u00e7\u0131kar. Neden biliyor musunuz? Hangi bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131na, mesle\u011fe, dine, \u0131rka belki de ya\u015fa sahip olursan\u0131z olun Muriel Rukeyser\u2019in dedi\u011fi gibi hayatta de\u011fi\u015ftiremeyece\u011fimiz bir nokta var: \u201cEvren atomlardan de\u011fil, hik\u00e2yelerden olu\u015fur.\u201d. O halde akl\u0131ma bir soru daha geldi: \u201cBizi biz yapan ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z m\u0131 ya\u015fayacaklar\u0131m\u0131z m\u0131; yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z hik\u00e2yemiz mi yoksa yazacak oldu\u011fumuz hik\u00e2yeler mi?\u201d Aa bir de tabii ki zihnimizdeki hik\u00e2yeler\u2026 Ke\u015fkeler ile ba\u015flayan pi\u015fmanl\u0131k c\u00fcmleleri, kendi hik\u00e2yesine s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nen insanlar; t\u00fcm bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde vard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z nokta ne olacak acaba?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Varaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z noktay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedim, hep yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015feyi yapmak istemiyorum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc biliyorum; hep bir \u015feylerin pe\u015finden ko\u015farken buluruz kendimizi, hep bir sonraki yere yeti\u015febilmek i\u00e7in savrulup gideriz, anlamay\u0131z bile hangi ara geldik buraya ve gelirken neler g\u00f6rd\u00fck, de\u011fil mi? \u0130\u015fte yine hik\u00e2yemizi yazmaktan ve ya\u015famaktan ziyade otomatik pilotta bizim i\u00e7in yaz\u0131lanlar\u0131 bekliyoruz. Yani sadece y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131, do\u011fum g\u00fcnleri ya da \u00e7ok \u00f6zel anlarda m\u0131 anl\u0131yoruz y\u0131llar\u0131n ge\u00e7ip gitti\u011fini yoksa fark\u0131nda m\u0131y\u0131z ge\u00e7mi\u015fe olan hasretimizin, d\u00fcn ile ilgili pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ve yaln\u0131zca gelece\u011fe yat\u0131r\u0131m yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n? Bir tek hasta olunca m\u0131 anl\u0131yoruz mesela sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n de\u011ferini ya da tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z biri bu hayattan g\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcp gitti\u011finde mi sorguluyoruz derin konular\u0131? Ve biraz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckten, vakit ge\u00e7tikten hemen sonra standardize edilmi\u015f ya\u015fam bi\u00e7imimize geri d\u00f6n\u00fcp gelece\u011fin tela\u015f\u0131, kayg\u0131s\u0131 ve h\u0131rs\u0131 i\u00e7erisinde bo\u011fulup kaybolmaya devam m\u0131 ediyoruz? \u0130\u015fler kontrolden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ise pi\u015fmanl\u0131k duygusu da ekleniyor ve kendimiz de d\u00e2hil kimseyi memnun edememi\u015f bir \u015fekilde g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen zincirler aras\u0131nda kendi nefesimizi t\u00fcketiyoruzdur belki de\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen ama de\u011feri paha bi\u00e7ilemez olan anlar vard\u0131r hayatta; bazen \u015fanst\u0131r, bazen de benli\u011finizi bulman\u0131z\u0131 sa\u011flayan \u015fanss\u0131zl\u0131kt\u0131r. \u0130\u015fte as\u0131l hik\u00e2ye burada ba\u015fl\u0131yor, yani sizin bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131n\u0131z, sabr\u0131n\u0131z ve hik\u00e2yenize y\u00f6n verecek olan var olu\u015funuz. Ula\u015fmak istenilen ba\u015far\u0131lar\u0131 elde etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken odak noktas\u0131n\u0131n sadece hedefler olmas\u0131, bas\u0131lan her ad\u0131mda belki ger\u00e7ekten ula\u015fmak istediklerinden uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor olabilir. Kilit nokta \u00fcnl\u00fc bir komutan\u0131n dedi\u011fi gibi zafere de\u011fil sefere odaklanmak<\/em>, insan\u0131n ki\u015fisel yolculu\u011funda hat\u0131r\u0131 say\u0131l\u0131r derecede \u00f6nemli olan bir noktaya temas etmekte. Yani, ruhumuzu gelece\u011fin h\u0131rs\u0131 ve kayg\u0131lar\u0131yla kaplarken, hik\u00e2yemizin d\u00f6n\u00fcm noktalar\u0131n\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131yor olabiliriz, tabii g\u00f6remedi\u011fimiz \u015fanslar\u0131 da!<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Yazar:<\/em> \u0130pek Salman<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201c\u00c7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen ama de\u011feri paha bi\u00e7ilemez olan anlar vard\u0131r hayatta; bazen \u015fanst\u0131r, bazen de benli\u011finizi bulman\u0131z\u0131 sa\u011flayan \u015fanss\u0131zl\u0131kt\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":66,"featured_media":3821,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,4,1],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n