(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 2 dakikad\u0131r.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dolmak, anlaman\u0131n g\u00f6lgesi gibidir; hatta anlamakt\u0131r. Sinirlenmenin, g\u00fclmenin, her iki anlamdaki krizin nedenidir. \u00d6\u011frenmek gibi t\u0131pk\u0131; analiz, paradigma, t\u00fcrev, form\u00fcl, t\u00fcm bu otomatikle\u015fen hislerin g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrde k\u0131sa, geni\u015f k\u00f6ke sahip ya\u015fam\u0131d\u0131r. Rahat rahat sindirmektir. Ayak ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131n, y\u00fcrek ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc, a\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 bazen de dilini tutmakt\u0131r. Dolmak, tan\u0131t\u0131c\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n selam\u0131na verilen, kendinden beklenmeyecek nazl\u0131l\u0131ktaki reverans\u0131d\u0131r. \u201cO kadar m\u0131?\u201dsorusuna, \u201cOnun gibi bin kadar.\u201d diyen o g\u00fcn kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z en bilge g\u00f6revlidir. Pedald\u0131r… Hi\u00e7 merak edilmeyen ama hep orada oldu\u011funu bildi\u011fimiz aksamd\u0131r\u2026 Karanl\u0131kta yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131kla bas\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kan sesten irkildikten sonra, \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yak\u0131p b\u00fcy\u00fclendi\u011fimiz ka\u00e7 \u015fey vard\u0131r ki \u015fu ya\u015famda? Bir tu\u015f\u2026 \u0130ki tu\u015f\u2026 Beyaz tu\u015f\u2026 Sonra siyah… \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc hep b\u00f6yle olur. Hep bu s\u0131rada ilerlenir, sonra his his b\u00fcy\u00fclenilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ger\u00e7ek olgunluk, sayfalar\u0131n atlanmadan okundu\u011fu anda ba\u015flar. \u00d6n s\u00f6z\u00fcnde, son s\u00f6z\u00fcnde, en az giri\u015f ve di\u011fer b\u00f6l\u00fcmler kadar de\u011ferli oldu\u011funu ya da bunlar\u0131 s\u00f6yleyen birinin ne kadar hakl\u0131 oldu\u011funu anlamakla ba\u015flar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7al\u0131\u015fmay\u0131 \u00e7ekici k\u0131lan en \u00f6nemli \u015feylerden biridir netlik. Netlik \u00f6yle berrak bir hazinedir ki, 20 y\u0131lda sonu\u00e7lanan bir deneyin her an\u0131n\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 veya hayattaki en b\u00fcy\u00fck z\u0131plamas\u0131n\u0131 bir ay i\u00e7erisinde ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftiren birine, bu kadar olmasa da bundan al\u0131nan hazla, daha ne s\u00fcrpriz ba\u015far\u0131lar elde edebilece\u011fini anlat\u0131r. Bunal\u0131ma sokan belirsizli\u011fi, kurdu\u011fu net hayallerle ortadan kald\u0131ran nefes egzersizidir \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak; netlikle penceredeki havay\u0131 i\u00e7eri dald\u0131rmak veya filmlerin s\u0131k s\u0131k dile getirip barok mobilyalarla s\u00fcsledi\u011fi replik \u2018kendi olman\u0131n ayna da g\u00f6r\u00fclebilecek yeg\u00e2ne \u015fey\u2019 oldu\u011fu gibi\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u00fcy\u00fclenmek, tu\u015flara tekrar tekrar basmak… Bir sonraki ad\u0131mda, ger\u00e7e\u011fin uyand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 heyecanl\u0131 netli\u011fe ula\u015fmak ve k\u00f6k\u00fc bulup hoca yapmak\u2026 Nitekim k\u00f6k, bu maceradaki en karizmatik hocam\u0131zd\u0131r. Hocad\u0131r \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc k\u00f6kl\u00fcd\u00fcr. Topra\u011f\u0131 derya bilgileriyle olu\u015fmu\u015f, s\u0131n\u0131f ayr\u0131m\u0131 yapmadan, \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fi her yeni bilgi filizlenmesini h\u0131zland\u0131rmadan, aheste bir \u015fekilde sahne \u00f6n\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Bir par\u00e7an\u0131n her bir notas\u0131n\u0131n, kolay zor diye ay\u0131rt etmeden \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131p birle\u015ftirdi\u011fi m\u00fczikli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler evresi gibi ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmi\u015f melodik olgun evrelerin par\u00e7alar\u0131d\u0131r. Sayg\u0131de\u011fer Wolfang K\u00f6hler ve Kurt Koffka\u2018n\u0131n da anlayabilece\u011fimiz en g\u00fczel \u015fekilde anlat\u0131p \u00f6ne s\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc gibi b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcp alg\u0131lamak, zarar vermeden anlamsal par\u00e7alara b\u00f6l\u00fcp her g\u00fcn tek tek notalara \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmakt\u0131r. O notalar\u0131n t\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc, siyah beyaz ay\u0131rt etmeden t\u00fcm tu\u015flar\u0131yla sevip, tozlanmas\u0131na anlaml\u0131 bir ciddiyetle kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karak her an \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmakt\u0131r. \u2018K\u00f6kten\u2019 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131kt\u0131r. Piyanonun bilinmeyen diline, nota s\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne sar\u0131larak k\u00f6k\u00fcn\u00fc bulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmakt\u0131r. O vakte kadar da, dizinin dibinde oturup bilgelik an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 dinlemektir..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(Bu yaz\u0131 hen\u00fcz 15 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken sahip oldu\u011fu telefonunun 4 melodisinden biri olan Franz Lizst\u2019in Liebestr\u00e4ume par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131, bir par\u00e7a ne kadar dinlenebiliyorsa o kadar dinleyen h\u00e2lime ve g\u00fczel olan her \u015feyi ayn\u0131 g\u00fczellikte kucaklayanlara ithaf edilmi\u015ftir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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