(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k 3 dakikad\u0131r.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kal\u0131pla\u015fm\u0131\u015f y\u00fcz ifadeleri, kal\u0131pla\u015fm\u0131\u015f duygular, tekd\u00fcze insanlar ve birbirinin kopyas\u0131 olan d\u00fcnler\u2026 Farkl\u0131 olan\u0131n su\u00e7land\u0131\u011f\u0131 otomat bir d\u00fcnya. Her g\u00fcn duymaya al\u0131\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f k\u00f6t\u00fc haberler\u2026 \u201cK\u00f6t\u00fc habere al\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131 hi\u00e7?\u201d demeyin, al\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131yormu\u015f. Ben al\u0131\u015famad\u0131m ger\u00e7i, her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn kalbim daha \u00e7ok par\u00e7aya ayr\u0131l\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm kadar\u0131yla herkes mutsuz, herkes \u00f6fkeli, kimsenin kimseye tahamm\u00fcl\u00fc kalmam\u0131\u015f. Herkes bir ko\u015fu\u015fturmacaya, bir \u015feylere yeti\u015fme derdinde. Hayvanlar da k\u00f6\u015fe bucak ka\u00e7\u0131yor, s\u0131\u011f\u0131nabilecek y\u00fcrek kalmam\u0131\u015f onlara. G\u00fclten Ak\u0131n bug\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6zetlemi\u015f sanki, \u201cAh, kimselerin vakti yok durup ince \u015feyleri anlamaya.\u201d diyerek. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne bir de, ne dinlenebilece\u011fimiz ye\u015filli\u011fimiz kald\u0131, ne mavili\u011fimiz. Ormanlar\u0131 da, denizimizi de, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc de harcad\u0131k bencilliklerimiz u\u011fruna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ben bu d\u00fcnyada ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken yoruluyorum. Sanki su\u00e7luymu\u015fum da, cezam d\u00fcnyada ya\u015famakm\u0131\u015f gibi geliyor zaman zaman. D\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131nda s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m, nereye d\u00f6nsem engelle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131yorum. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir pencereden \u0131\u015f\u0131k s\u0131z\u0131yor i\u00e7eriye, tozlu bir hava giriyor bir de. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m her nefes ci\u011ferime bat\u0131yor ama sorun de\u011fil benim i\u00e7in. Her nefesin, sona biraz daha yakla\u015ft\u0131rmas\u0131n\u0131n mutlulu\u011fu var i\u00e7imde. Zaten \u201cYa\u015f\u0131yorum.\u201d da diyemiyorum bu d\u00fcnyada.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara ra\u011fmen bir umut var i\u00e7imde. Pencereden s\u0131zan \u0131\u015f\u0131k g\u00fcn do\u011fumunu, yenilenmeyi hat\u0131rlat\u0131yor bana. Hapishanemin k\u00f6\u015fesinde duran, \u00e7atlam\u0131\u015f saks\u0131daki kurumaya y\u00fcz tutan toprakta, hala ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan c\u0131l\u0131z bir bitkim var i\u00e7ime umutlar\u0131m\u0131 ye\u015ferten. Ne suyunu, ne sevgimi eksik etmiyorum ondan. C\u0131l\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa ra\u011fmen, kurumaya inat edi\u015fi cesaret veriyor bana. D\u00fcnyay\u0131 g\u00fczelle\u015ftirecek ba\u015fka bir \u015feyim de yok zaten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Biliyorum bir yerlerde benim gibi birilerinin, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n iyile\u015fece\u011fine ait umudu, sevgisiyle hayatta tutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 c\u0131l\u0131z bir bitkisi oldu\u011funu. Gelin topla\u015fal\u0131m bir araya, d\u00fcnyay\u0131 g\u00fczelle\u015ftirmeye ne kadar faydas\u0131 olur bilemem ama d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fczelle\u015ftirece\u011finden de eminim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yazar:<\/em> Duygu Akku\u015f<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201cSanki su\u00e7luymu\u015fum da, cezam d\u00fcnyada ya\u015famakm\u0131\u015f gibi geliyor zaman zaman. D\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131nda s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m, nereye d\u00f6nsem engelle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131yorum. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir pencereden \u0131\u015f\u0131k s\u0131z\u0131yor i\u00e7eriye, tozlu bir hava giriyor bir de. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m her nefes ci\u011ferime bat\u0131yor ama sorun de\u011fil benim i\u00e7in. Her nefesin, sona biraz daha yakla\u015ft\u0131rmas\u0131n\u0131n mutlulu\u011fu var i\u00e7imde.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":14,"featured_media":3521,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,4,1],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n