Efsanelere g\u00f6re, Bilgi A\u011fac\u0131\u2019n\u0131n dallar\u0131nda, Kaf Da\u011f\u0131\u2019nda bir ku\u015f ya\u015farm\u0131\u015f. Bu ku\u015f, kendi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissedip de dallardan bir yuva in\u015fa ettikten sonra, bilinmeyen bir s\u0131v\u0131yla bu yuvay\u0131 s\u0131varm\u0131\u015f. Ad\u0131 Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd\u00fc Anka\u2019ym\u0131\u015f. G\u00fcne\u015fin \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 kuru dallar\u0131n\u0131 yakmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ise \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc ger\u00e7ekle\u015firmi\u015f, asl\u0131nda \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc bekleyerek\u2026 Fakat sonras\u0131nda k\u00fcllerinin aras\u0131ndan yeniden bir Anka Ku\u015fu olarak do\u011farm\u0131\u015f. O her yeniden kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131\u015f\u0131nda, bilgi a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n yapraklar\u0131n\u0131n titreyip de, bitkilerin tohumlar\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6k\u00fclmesine sebep oldu\u011funda, t\u00fcm bitkiler k\u00f6k al\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Bu bitkiler sayesinde de t\u00fcm hastal\u0131klar\u0131n iyile\u015fti\u011fi s\u00f6ylenirmi\u015f. Bir g\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn ku\u015flar, Ankaya ula\u015fmak i\u00e7in, bir arada g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne do\u011fru u\u00e7maya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015flar. Ama yolculuk s\u0131ras\u0131nda aralar\u0131ndan baz\u0131lar\u0131 yorularak d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fler\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Her \u015feyin geli\u015fig\u00fczel elde edildi\u011fi ve cennet sand\u0131klar\u0131 bir Nefs vadisine varm\u0131\u015flar. Kendilerini \u00f6ylesine kapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015f ki baz\u0131lar\u0131, i\u015fte t\u00fcm kay\u0131plar\u0131n ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 burada ya\u015fanmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f. Pusla kapl\u0131 bir vadiye do\u011fru yol ald\u0131klar\u0131nda, g\u00f6rd\u00fckleri her \u015feyi bir ba\u015fka ku\u015f sanar olmu\u015flar. G\u00f6zler k\u00f6r tabii, devam edememi\u015f bir\u00e7o\u011fu bu A\u015fk vadisinde.. Sonras\u0131nda an gelmi\u015f, ne \u00e7evreyi ne ard\u0131n\u0131 ne de o ula\u015fmaya can att\u0131klar\u0131 Anka\u2019y\u0131 unutmu\u015flar bu Cehalet vadisinde. Yine kay\u0131p, ne ac\u0131.. G\u00fcn gelmi\u015f, her \u015fey anlam\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015f. \u0130nan\u00e7tan yoksun, oraya ula\u015fsalar bile yard\u0131m alamayacaklarm\u0131\u015f gibi, \u00f6ylesine bir umutsuzluk.. Geri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f bir\u00e7o\u011fu bu \u0130nan\u00e7s\u0131zl\u0131k vadisinden.. Korku i\u00e7inde yaln\u0131zl\u0131klar\u0131na dalm\u0131\u015flar sonras\u0131nda, aldanm\u0131\u015flar oysa.. Bir arada u\u00e7tuklar\u0131n\u0131 unutarak tek ba\u015flar\u0131na yok olanlar olmu\u015f bu Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k vadisinde.. Kulaklarda binlerce f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131yla Dedikodu vadisine do\u011fru yol alm\u0131\u015flar. Ankan\u0131n t\u00fcylerinin yand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyenler, gizlendi\u011fini s\u00f6yleyenler, onu g\u00f6rene zarar verdi\u011fini s\u00f6yleyenler ve dahas\u0131 t\u00fcm bunlara dayanamay\u0131p kendini \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yleyenler varm\u0131\u015f ve i\u015fte yine d\u00f6nenler ve kalanlar olmu\u015f, Benlik vadisine do\u011fru giderlerken.. Ku\u015flar Benlik vadisine girince, her birinin i\u00e7inde de\u011fi\u015fik bir his uyanm\u0131\u015f. Kimi kendini be\u011fenmemeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, kimi her \u015feyi bildi\u011fini iddia etmi\u015f. Baz\u0131lar\u0131 “yanl\u0131\u015f yolday\u0131z” demi\u015f ve karga\u015fa \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yedi vadinin \u00fczerinden ge\u00e7erlerken say\u0131lar\u0131 gitgide azalm\u0131\u015f, Kaf Da\u011f\u0131’na ula\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131nda sadece otuz ku\u015f kalm\u0131\u015f. Tepeye do\u011fru \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p Anka’n\u0131n yuvas\u0131n\u0131 bulduklar\u0131nda \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fler ki, her biri esas\u0131nda bir Anka’ym\u0131\u015f. Tam o an anlam\u0131\u015flar ki esas\u0131nda arad\u0131klar\u0131 kendileriymi\u015f. Yolculuk asl\u0131nda kendilerine yapt\u0131klar\u0131 bir yolculukmu\u015f. Bilgeli\u011fe ula\u015fan m\u00fckemmel ku\u015f, bu yedi vadiyi ge\u00e7ebilen ve egolar\u0131ndan kurtulabilen ku\u015fmu\u015f, yeniden k\u00fcllerinden do\u011fabilenlermi\u015f ve hepsi i\u00e7erisinde yaln\u0131zca otuz ku\u015f Kaf da\u011f\u0131na ula\u015fabilmi\u015f..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u00fcllerinden yeniden do\u011fan Anka Ku\u015fu \u00f6z\u00fcnde kendi kendini yarat\u0131yordu i\u015fte. Kanatlar\u0131n\u0131n vadilere uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131 her bir dokunu\u015fu, kendi yaras\u0131n\u0131 iyile\u015ftiriyordu. Onu uzaklarda aramak ne kadar da yanl\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hayat\u0131n, yolun ve her birinin biricikli\u011finden bi haber, \u201cyanl\u0131\u015f yolday\u0131z\u201d demek ne kadar haks\u0131zl\u0131kt\u0131.. Benim bir kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131\u015f\u0131mda \u201cAh!\u201d geliyor kula\u011f\u0131ma, akl\u0131ma Madak geliyor tam bu s\u0131rada \u201c \u0130nsan \u00e7\u0131t\u0131r ekme\u011fi \u0131s\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \/ K\u0131r\u0131klar dolar kuca\u011f\u0131na \/ \u0130\u015fte oras\u0131 umudun tarlas\u0131d\u0131r \/ Ve orada ba\u015faklar a\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \/ Say\u0131s\u0131z ah d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc topra\u011fa.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yazmak meselesi temast\u0131, ba\u011fd\u0131. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa sar\u0131larak konu\u015fmakt\u0131 her bir di\u011feriyle, asl\u0131nda kendiyle.. Anlamakt\u0131, anlatmakt\u0131. G\u00fcne\u015fin bat\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131, a\u011fac\u0131n yapra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc fakat en nihayetinde hepsinin yeniden varolu\u015funu.. Ac\u0131y\u0131, kederi, umudu d\u0131\u015fa vurmakt\u0131, payla\u015fmakt\u0131. Kendi okyanusuna d\u00fc\u015ferken de, k\u00fcllerinden yeniden do\u011farken de.. Y\u0131llar sonras\u0131na, bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na b\u0131rak\u0131lan izdi, hat\u0131rlama ihtiyac\u0131yd\u0131, ihtiya\u00e7 duyuldu\u011funda geri d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakmakt\u0131. Birka\u00e7 dakika ya da birka\u00e7 saat s\u00fcren bir yolculukta kendini bulmak, siyah ya da beyazdan ziyade griyi fark etmekti. A\u015fk idi yazmak, b\u00fcy\u00fcmek idi. Kendine ait olan veyahut olmayan yaralar\u0131n band\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6k\u00fcp de tekrar tekrar yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmakt\u0131. Hayat gibi bir m\u00fccadeleydi, g\u00f6n\u00fclden g\u00f6n\u00fcle uzanan bir el idi, omuzlar\u0131nda hissetti\u011fi.. Yakalar\u0131ndan tutup da hayatlar\u0131 birbirine \u00e7arp\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmak idi. \u015eifa idi en nihayetinde, hemhal olmakt\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcnde. Yaray\u0131 dinlerken de yaran\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrken de.. Sessizli\u011fin derin \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7inde, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n ac\u0131 ilac\u0131yla.. Bir kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki do\u011fu\u015fla, her bir da\u011fda duydu\u011fu yank\u0131yla..
\u0130\u015fte, hepsi y\u0131k\u0131lmaz birer da\u011f, hepsi birer Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd\u00fc Anka\u2019yd\u0131..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Aruoba\u2019n\u0131n da dedi\u011fi gibi:
\u201cYerlerimiz, hep,
yeni yollar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015flar\u0131;
yollar\u0131m\u0131z da, hep,
yeni yerlerimizin sonlar\u0131 ola\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrde on iki ay, \u00f6z\u00fcnde bir \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcren yolculu\u011fun ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131.
Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131za ve yol arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131za sonsuz te\u015fekk\u00fcrler..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yazar: Ceren Bayram<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
“Kanatlar\u0131n\u0131n vadilere uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131 her bir dokunu\u015fu, kendi yaras\u0131n\u0131 iyile\u015ftiriyordu.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2625,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,3],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n