(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 4 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Masan\u0131n sa\u011f taraf\u0131nda okunmay\u0131 bekleyen kocaman kitaplar, \u00f6n\u00fcnde yaz\u0131 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n
elindeki kaleminin g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fczerine yans\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 makyaj aynas\u0131, aylard\u0131r kokusundan<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015fa\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 parf\u00fcm\u00fc, sol \u00e7apraz\u0131nda ye\u015filinin g\u00f6z kama\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 erik dolu bir tabak, yan\u0131ndan<\/p>\n\n\n\n
hi\u00e7 ay\u0131rmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ajandas\u0131, bir torba dolusu ila\u00e7, bir \u015fi\u015fe su, bir toka, bir el kremi ve masan\u0131n<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00fczerine damlam\u0131\u015f birka\u00e7 damla g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cOnlar\u0131n i\u00e7indeki ac\u0131 de\u011fil, hi\u00e7 dinmemi\u015f ve hi\u00e7bir zaman da dinmeyecek olan bir<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0131st\u0131rapt\u0131r.\u201d demi\u015fti bir g\u00fcn \u00f6\u011fretmeni \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc herkesin say\u0131l\u0131 g\u00fcnler kadar d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc<\/p>\n\n\n\n
g\u00f6zlerinden ya\u015flar; onlar ise bir \u00f6m\u00fcr g\u00f6zlerinden akan damlalardan t\u00fcremi\u015f selde<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bo\u011fulmamak i\u00e7in tela\u015ftayd\u0131lar. Bu paragraf\u0131n ve \u00f6\u011fretmeninin s\u00f6yledi\u011fi s\u00f6z\u00fcn anlam\u0131n\u0131 yak\u0131n<\/p>\n\n\n\n
zamanda tek bir c\u00fcmleyle ve o c\u00fcmleyle birlikte kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya getirildi\u011fi ger\u00e7eklik sayesinde<\/p>\n\n\n\n
anlayacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Y\u0131llard\u0131r kabullenmeyi reddetti\u011fi ger\u00e7eklikle hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011fi bir anda, yerde ve<\/p>\n\n\n\n
defalarca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme hakk\u0131 olsayd\u0131 bile hi\u00e7bir zaman tahmin edemeyece\u011fi bir insan arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla<\/p>\n\n\n\n
y\u00fczle\u015fmi\u015fti. S\u00f6ylenen soyut tek bir c\u00fcmle, i\u00e7i dolu a\u011f\u0131r bir \u00e7uvala d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f; s\u0131rt\u0131nda yer<\/p>\n\n\n\n
edinmi\u015fti. Sanki o c\u00fcmle somutla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130\u00e7sel bir hesapla\u015fma ya\u015f\u0131yordu. C\u00fcmlesinin vurgulu kelimesi onun b\u00fct\u00fcn<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00e7ocuklu\u011fuydu. Bu fark\u0131ndal\u0131k milatt\u0131 onun i\u00e7in. Y\u00fckselen sesler, s\u00f6ylenen k\u00fcf\u00fcrler, a\u011f\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ithamlar, k\u0131r\u0131lan e\u015fyalar, hi\u00e7 bitmeyen hedefler, ard\u0131na saklan\u0131lan kap\u0131lar, m\u00fckemmellik<\/p>\n\n\n\n
beklentileri, kurdu\u011fun hayallerin bile asl\u0131nda senin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ya\u015fam alan\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ezkaza, kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 fazladan kini, nefreti, \u00f6fkeyi de\u011fil de o kinin, nefretin, \u00f6fkenin<\/p>\n\n\n\n
aras\u0131nda arada s\u0131rada olsa bile par\u0131ldayan sevgiyi g\u00f6r\u00fcp sevginin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, g\u00fcc\u00fcne inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
As\u0131l g\u00fc\u00e7 sevgiydi. \u0130ncitmezdi. \u0130yile\u015ftirirdi; iyile\u015ftiremedi\u011finde bile yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmazd\u0131,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
vefal\u0131yd\u0131, i\u00e7inde merhameti bar\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O g\u00fcn ilk defa sevgisinden utand\u0131. Benli\u011finden utand\u0131. Elinde olsa sevgisini<\/p>\n\n\n\n
t\u0131rnaklar\u0131yla her bir h\u00fccresinden kaz\u0131ya kaz\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131karacakt\u0131, s\u00f6k\u00fcp atacakt\u0131.O, her zaman sevgisiyle birlikte gelen umuduna tutunurdu. Hayat\u0131 romantize ederdi<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc insanlar\u0131, do\u011fay\u0131 yani ya\u015fam\u0131n kendisini, ya\u015famay\u0131 severdi. Her g\u00fcn yakas\u0131na bir bro\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n
misali umudu ili\u015ftirirdi lakin unuttu\u011fu bir detay vard\u0131. Bu hayatta her duygu z\u0131tt\u0131yla varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n
korurdu. O, umudu ve sevgiyi se\u00e7mi\u015fti. Var oldu\u011fu g\u00fcnden itibaren saklamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
g\u00f6rmezden geldi\u011fi i\u00e7indeki siyah\u0131 unutmu\u015ftu. Art\u0131k anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ka\u00e7amazd\u0131. Kendi ka\u00e7amazd\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ama i\u00e7indeki siyahtan sevdi\u011fi herkesi uzak tutabilirdi \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc umut t\u00fckenmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7ok sevdi\u011fi bir insan, onun b\u00fct\u00fcn bu ger\u00e7eklikle y\u00fczle\u015fmesini sa\u011flayan insan<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00f6\u011fretmi\u015fti ona yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131. Teorikte ondan, pratikte hayattan \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti. \u00d6\u011frenme<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tekrarla ger\u00e7ekle\u015firdi ve o yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenecek kadar tekrara maruz kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Baz\u0131 insanlar, baz\u0131 kalpler yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa mahk\u00fbmdu \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ya\u015flan\u0131p sonun sonsuzlu\u011funa<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ula\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131nda geride sadece yazd\u0131klar\u0131, \u00e7izdikleri, parmaklar\u0131yla dokunduklar\u0131 notalar\u0131,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00fczerinde bir \u00f6m\u00fcr harcad\u0131klar\u0131 bulu\u015flar\u0131 ya da romanlar\u0131 kalmal\u0131yd\u0131. Onlar, \u015fimdinin<\/strong> kalplerinde de\u011fil de y\u00fczy\u0131llar sonra sadece, masallarda, bir roman\u0131n ucu k\u0131vr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n sayfas\u0131nda ya\u015famal\u0131yd\u0131lar.<\/strong> \u0130simleri kendi soylar\u0131nda an\u0131lacak olan insanlar ise istedikleri<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u015fekilde, istedikleri \u015fehirde, istedikleri evde, istedikleri biriyle sonun sonsuzlu\u011funa kadar ya\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n almay\u0131 hak ediyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Art\u0131k k\u0131zm\u0131yordu. Sadece k\u0131rg\u0131nd\u0131. K\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ki\u015fiye, s\u00f6ylenmi\u015f bir s\u00f6ze ya da bir<\/p>\n\n\n\n duruma de\u011fildi. G\u00fcnlere, aylara, y\u0131llara k\u0131rg\u0131nd\u0131. Hayat\u0131n ona bir g\u00fcn de\u011fil, bir ay de\u011fil, bir<\/p>\n\n\n\n y\u0131l de\u011fil de bir \u00f6m\u00fcr borcu vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O, yava\u015f yava\u015f herkesin zihninde kaybolmaya y\u00fcz tutmu\u015f bir an\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fecekti. Yol<\/p>\n\n\n\n nereye g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr bilmiyordu ama bildi\u011fi tek bir \u015fey vard\u0131 ki unutuldu\u011funda kilometrelerce<\/p>\n\n\n\n uzaklarda, belki de denizlerin, okyanuslar\u0131n ard\u0131nda olacakt\u0131. Tek \u00e7\u0131kmayacakt\u0131 bu yola.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00d6\u011fretti\u011fi, \u00f6\u011frettikleri yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 e\u015flik edecekti ona. Zaman\u0131 gelince\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ger\u00e7ek olamayacak kadar g\u00fczel bir r\u00fcyadan, r\u00fcyalardan uyanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bunca y\u0131ld\u0131r ilk defa dinmemi\u015fti May\u0131s\u2019\u0131n ya\u011fmuru, sisi, f\u0131rt\u0131nas\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7ekleri a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n ama bitirmeye g\u00fcc\u00fc yetmemi\u015fti k\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc May\u0131s a\u011fl\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Uzak Do\u011fu k\u00fclt\u00fcrlerinde as\u0131rlard\u0131r anlat\u0131lan yayg\u0131n bir inan\u0131\u015f vard\u0131r. Birbirine kaderle<\/p>\n\n\n\n ba\u011fl\u0131 iki insan, g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bir iple birbirine ba\u011flan\u0131r. \u0130pi g\u00f6remezsin ama ya\u015fad\u0131k\u00e7ahissedersin. Bu ip zaman zaman esner, k\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm olur ama hi\u00e7bir zaman kopmaz; hayat o<\/p>\n\n\n\n ba\u011f\u0131 hep korur \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu inanca g\u00f6re kaderden ka\u00e7\u0131lmaz. \u0130nce, g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bir ip\u2026 Bu<\/p>\n\n\n\n ba\u011f ne zamana ne de mek\u00e2na ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ger\u00e7ek ba\u011flar g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez; sadece hissedilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Belki ba\u015fka bir d\u00fcnyada\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n Alt\u0131, iki, d\u00f6rt, dokuz\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sonsuz\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sayg\u0131 ve \u00e7ok\u00e7a sevgiyle\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nokta\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n K\u00fcbra Fatma Demir<\/p>\n\n\n\n G\u00f6rsel yazar\u0131n kendisi taraf\u0131ndan yapay zek\u00e2 ile olu\u015fturulmu\u015ftur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201cOnlar, \u015fimdinin kalplerinde de\u011fil de y\u00fczy\u0131llar sonra sadece efsanelerde, masallarda, bir roman\u0131n ucu k\u0131vr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f sayfas\u0131nda ya\u015famal\u0131yd\u0131lar.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6408,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,784,1],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n