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(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okuma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 3 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sadece kendi duydu\u011fu m\u00fczi\u011fin ahenginde, bu kez kendini yarg\u0131layan bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda ezilmeden yaln\u0131zca oradan oraya savrulurken \u00e7izer insanlar eteklerine y\u0131ld\u0131z tozlar\u0131n\u0131. Emek vermek zorunda kalmadan, nefes alman\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ci\u011ferlerini sarmadan, sadece kendi olarak, kimseye yeti\u015fme gayesi g\u00fctmeksizin s\u00fcr\u00fclmek istenen bir hayat ancak o vakit ge\u00e7er zira ellerine. Sonsuzlu\u011fa kavu\u015ftuklar\u0131 vakit\u2026 Gen\u00e7 bir ihtiyar, yeti\u015fkin bir \u00e7ocuk, \u00f6l\u00fc bir yeti\u015fkin, ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f bir hayat koyarlar bavullar\u0131na ve birka\u00e7 ad\u0131mda ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndad\u0131r t\u00fcm g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc. Beyinlerinin i\u00e7inde d\u00f6n\u00fcp duranlar notalara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr o vakit, uykusuz geceleri sabaha ula\u015f\u0131r; g\u00fcne\u015f do\u011far, bu kez sahiden do\u011far g\u00fcne\u015f.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Biri onlar\u0131n \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131na kulak vermi\u015ftir zira bu kez, beden d\u00fcnya \u00fczerinde varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sonland\u0131r\u0131nca ula\u015fmaz insan sonsuzlu\u011fa ki ho\u015ftur, insan kendinin sonu olur \u00e7o\u011fu vakit, orada, burada veya \u015furada b\u0131rak\u0131rlar hayat\u0131ndan ve ruhundan par\u00e7alar, baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 geri al\u0131rlar, baz\u0131lar\u0131 ise b\u0131rakt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n insaf\u0131nda k\u00fcl olur gider yaln\u0131zca, er ya da ge\u00e7, hemen veya sonra.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Baz\u0131lar\u0131 ise bitti dedi\u011fi yerde, bitti dedi\u011fi vakit do\u011far tekrar. Maslow buna kendini ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirme der; o, bu veya \u015fu b\u00fcy\u00fcme der; baz\u0131lar\u0131 ise onlar kendi ellerini b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 vakit tutup \u00e7ekecek birine veya bir \u015feye sahip olacak kadar \u015fansl\u0131d\u0131r belki. En nihayetinde beden b\u00fcy\u00fcr b\u00fcy\u00fcmesine de ruh \u00e7ok daha \u00e7abuk b\u00fcy\u00fcr, \u00e7ok daha \u00e7abuk \u00f6l\u00fcr baz\u0131 bedenlerde. Kutsananlar, unutkanlar de\u011fillerdir. \u015eu noktada, hatalar\u0131n\u0131n bedelini ta\u015f\u0131yanlar de\u011fil, hatalar\u0131n\u0131n, kusurlar\u0131n\u0131n bedellerini \u00e7antas\u0131na koyabilen, bunun y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc ta\u015f\u0131yabilen, d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc vakit bir \u015fekilde aya\u011fa kalkabilen, canl\u0131 kalabilen, yeniden do\u011fabilenlerdir tekrar ve tekrar. B\u00fcy\u00fcmeyi ba\u015farabilenlerdir kutsananlar, bedeni ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcrece ruhlar\u0131n\u0131 da ayakta tutabilenlerdir.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Peki nas\u0131l b\u00fcy\u00fcr insano\u011flu? Tarihin belki en eski sorular\u0131ndan biridir bu. Bir\u00e7ok psikolog, bir\u00e7ok ekol, bir\u00e7ok d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr, yazar, \u015fair, sanat\u00e7\u0131 farkl\u0131 anlamlar getirir bu kavrama ancak ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n yere de\u011fmedi\u011fi bir danst\u0131r b\u00fcy\u00fcme asl\u0131nda. Dans etmeyi \u00f6\u011frenir insan nefes almaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda. \u0130lk ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 ebeveynlerinden, zaman ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e e\u015finden, dostundan, hayat\u0131ndan gelip ge\u00e7en say\u0131s\u0131z insandan \u00f6\u011frenir nas\u0131l savrulaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131; baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 kendine katmak, baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan s\u0131yr\u0131lmak i\u00e7in. Ayaklar\u0131 ac\u0131r baz\u0131 noktalarda, ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131 vurur, ad\u0131mlar\u0131 kar\u0131\u015f\u0131r, bazen kendi \u00fcst\u00fcne basar, kendine \u00e7elme takar bazen. B\u00fcy\u00fcmenin \u00e7ekirde\u011fidir nas\u0131l devam etti\u011fi, zira b\u00fcy\u00fcmenin ger\u00e7ek seyri ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdi\u011fi y\u00f6nde devam eder asl\u0131nda. Dikenli yollarda da dans eder insan, y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda da say\u0131s\u0131z insan\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda da\u2026 Su her zaman hayat vadetmez bu yolda, ate\u015f her zaman yakmaz, \u00f6ld\u00fcrmeyen ac\u0131 her zaman g\u00fc\u00e7lendirmez. Yolun sonunda hep \u0131\u015f\u0131k vard\u0131r elbet lakin meleklerin haleleri midir, cehennemin alevleri midir muallakt\u0131r; bu y\u00fczden devam eder, etmelidir insan dans\u0131na, bedeninin de ruhunun da dans etmeye g\u00fcc\u00fc kalmayana dek.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n En nihayetinde \u00e7antas\u0131na biner kendine katt\u0131\u011f\u0131 her bir ruh ve \u00e7antas\u0131ndan ayr\u0131l\u0131r t\u00fcm sorumluluklar\u0131.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n En nihayetinde sonlan\u0131r \u00f6l\u00fc adamlar, \u00f6l\u00fc kad\u0131nlar, b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7ocuklar, ihtiyar yeti\u015fkinler ve yeniden do\u011fanlar\u0131n dans\u0131.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n En nihayetinde m\u00fczik sonlan\u0131r ve ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n izi kal\u0131r oldu\u011fu yerde lakin kal\u0131r m\u0131 sahiden? Her son gibi yeni bir ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 vadeder mi bu dans da?<\/p>\n\n\n\n P\u0131nar Yaman<\/p>\n\n\n\n