(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 3 dakikad\u0131r.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendine inanmak, hayat\u0131n en sessiz ama en g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc devrimidir. \u0130nsan bazen en \u00e7etin m\u00fccadeleyi d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki d\u00fcnyayla de\u011fil, kendi i\u00e7indeki teredd\u00fctlerle verir. \u015e\u00fcphe, kalbin kap\u0131s\u0131na sinsice dayan\u0131r; \u201cya yapamazsan\u201d f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 kulaklarda yank\u0131lan\u0131r ve \u00e7o\u011fu zaman insan, o f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131n\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda ezilir. Ba\u015flamadan yorulur, denemeden kaybeder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oysa insan\u0131 as\u0131l t\u00fcketen \u015fey ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131k de\u011fil, hi\u00e7 ba\u015flamamakt\u0131r. En b\u00fcy\u00fck yorgunluk, ertelenmi\u015f hayallerin kalpte b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r sessizliktir. Kendine inanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, atmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n her ad\u0131m\u0131n pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 birikir. Ve g\u00fcn gelir; yapamad\u0131klar\u0131n, denemeye bile cesaret edemediklerin, hayat\u0131n\u0131n en a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fc olur. \u0130\u015fte tam da bu y\u00fczden inanmak, g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez zincirleri k\u0131rmakt\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc inanmak, yolu g\u00f6remesen de yola \u00e7\u0131kmay\u0131 se\u00e7mektir; ad\u0131m att\u0131k\u00e7a \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n kendi i\u00e7inde yanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmek demektir. \u0130\u015fte bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ad\u0131mlar, insan\u0131n kendi \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n fark etmesinin ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendine inanmak, bazen sadece \u201cdeneyece\u011fim\u201d diyebilmektir. Att\u0131\u011f\u0131n her k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ad\u0131mda kendi \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ke\u015ffedersin. O \u0131\u015f\u0131k, ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n onay\u0131ndan, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n alk\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan ya da ailenin ve arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n beklentilerinden gelmez; sessizce kendi y\u00fcre\u011finde b\u00fcy\u00fcr. Fark etmeden bir g\u00fcn bakars\u0131n ki, seni geride tutan b\u00fct\u00fcn korkular \u00e7oktan geride kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n t\u00fcm yollar\u0131 ayd\u0131nlatmas\u0131na izin vermi\u015fsindir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ancak yol ne kadar ayd\u0131nl\u0131k olursa olsun, bazen tuzaklara tak\u0131labiliriz. Kusursuz olmay\u0131 beklemek, bu yolun en b\u00fcy\u00fck tuza\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Oysa insan, eksikleriyle tamamd\u0131r. Her yara, her yanl\u0131\u015f, her kay\u0131p, asl\u0131nda yolun bir par\u00e7as\u0131d\u0131r. Kendi k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 saklamadan y\u00fcr\u00fcyebilmek, i\u015fte ger\u00e7ek cesaret budur. Hayat, seni hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmeyecek bir g\u00fcvenlik alan\u0131 de\u011fil; d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp kalkarak \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fin bir sahnedir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve ben, kendimle girdi\u011fim sava\u015ftan bir \u015fey \u00f6\u011frendim: Kendine inanmak, kusursuz olmak de\u011fildir. Aksine, eksiklerini kucaklayarak onlarla y\u00fcr\u00fcmektir. Her d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015fte yeniden do\u011frulmak, her yenilgiyi bir ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 saymakt\u0131r. Tam da o anlarda, i\u00e7indeki ses sana \u201cya yapamazsam ya her \u015fey ters giderse?\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, \u015eems-i Tebrizi\u2019nin \u015fu s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rlamakt\u0131r: \u201cD\u00fczenim bozulur, hayat\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcne gelir\u201d diye endi\u015fe etme. Nereden biliyorsun, hayat\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnden daha iyi olmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n