(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunmas\u0131 s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k 2 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.) <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ben 19 ya\u015f\u0131nda, hayat\u0131n\u0131n ilk \u00e7eyre\u011finde kendi yolunda y\u00fcr\u00fcmek i\u00e7in u\u011fra\u015fan, bazen d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerinde gezinmeyi abart\u0131p g\u00fcn do\u011fumunu yakalayan; kalbinin sesini dinlemeyi ilke edinmi\u015f, hayat\u0131n tezatlar\u0131yla bar\u0131\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bu durumu bazen ba\u015faran bazen ise isyan eden, herkes gibi ya\u015fam m\u00fccadelesi veren biriyim. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hayatta herkesin kendine has gitti\u011fi bir yol oldu\u011funa inan\u0131r\u0131m. Att\u0131\u011f\u0131m her ad\u0131m\u0131n e\u015fsiz oldu\u011funu bilmeye gayret g\u00f6steririm. Nefes alabildi\u011fim s\u00fcrece var oldu\u011fumu bilirim. Ve bu hayat\u0131n bana verilmi\u015f bir l\u00fctuf oldu\u011funu… <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eskiden kendimi \u015fansl\u0131 biri olarak tan\u0131mlayamazd\u0131m. Ya\u015f ald\u0131k\u00e7a, i\u00e7imde yan\u0131p tutu\u015fan o kalple tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u00c7ok ufak minicik bir y\u00fcrekti. Masumiyetle sar\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131 d\u00f6rt bir yan\u0131. Hareketli, hafiften yaramaz bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fuydu… Korkular\u0131, umutlar\u0131, hayalleri, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131yla; en \u00e7ok da sevgisiyle herkesi b\u00fcy\u00fclerdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bazen d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum, hayat\u0131m \u015fu an o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n hayal etti\u011fi gibi de\u011fil. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onun masum d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda ne bir k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck ne de bir kayg\u0131 yoktu. Sevgiyle sar\u0131lmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti herkese. Kalbin yaln\u0131zca heyecanla \u0131s\u0131naca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131rd\u0131, k\u0131r\u0131labilece\u011finden habersizdi. Oyuncaklar\u0131n\u0131 payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n onunla oyunlar oynamas\u0131na al\u0131\u015fk\u0131nd\u0131, insanlar\u0131n rol yapabilece\u011fini nereden bilebilirdi? Az evvel dedim ya hayat\u0131 tezatl\u0131klar\u0131yla kabul etme gayretindeyim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Biliyorum t\u00fcm bunlar o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131 biraz h\u00fcz\u00fcnlendirirdi fakat eminim ki benimle gurur duyard\u0131. Ben de ona kocaman sar\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131m… <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hayatta kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za neler \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeden ya\u015far\u0131z. As\u0131l mesele ya\u015fananlar\u0131 nereye koyabilece\u011fini \u00f6\u011frenmekten ge\u00e7er. Herkesi biricik k\u0131lan k\u0131s\u0131m belki de buras\u0131d\u0131r. Bamba\u015fka evlerde, benzersiz isimlerle an\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olsak bile benzer ac\u0131larla m\u00fccadele etti\u011fimizi biliyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kalbimiz atmaya devam etti\u011fi s\u00fcrece, i\u00e7imizdeki o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocu\u011fun \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131na sahip \u00e7\u0131kmak zorunday\u0131z. Her yeni g\u00fcne heyecanlanarak ba\u015flayamasak bile ufak ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n bizi \u00e7ocukla\u015ft\u0131rmas\u0131na izin vererek, i\u00e7imizde biriken h\u00fczn\u00fc payla\u015fmaya haz\u0131r sokak kedisine kucak a\u00e7arak ya da sadece kendimize ufak molalar\u0131 fazla g\u00f6rmeyerek benli\u011fimize daha s\u0131k\u0131ca tutunabiliriz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zaman\u0131n hoyratl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcne ra\u011fmen i\u00e7imizdeki o masum kalbin ellerinden tutabilirsek bizi kim y\u0131kabilir ki? <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Melike Karaba\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n G\u00f6rsel kayna\u011f\u0131 yapay zek\u00e2 taraf\u0131ndan olu\u015fturulmu\u015ftur. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" “Zaman\u0131n hoyratl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcne ra\u011fmen i\u00e7imizdeki o masum kalbin ellerinden tutabilirsek bizi kim y\u0131kabilir ki? “<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":5943,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,4,1],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n