\u2018AH KAVAKLAR.. AH KAVAKLAR
\nARDIMDAN ISLIK \u00c7ALAR\u2019<\/p>\n
\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdan bir yel \u015fimdilere eser, kavaklar\u0131n \u0131sl\u0131klar\u0131 geceme \u00e7alar..
\nAn\u0131lar\u0131m gecelerimi \u015fimdiden \u00e7alar..<\/p>\n
Hepimizin \u00e7ocuklu\u011funa dair bir \u00e7ok an\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131r, g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131.. o anda ne kadar huzurlu oldu\u011funu asl\u0131nda \u015fimdi daha iyi g\u00f6rebildi\u011fi an\u0131lar.Kesik kesik sahneler vard\u0131r, belki bol kahkaha att\u0131\u011f\u0131, belki i\u00e7li i\u00e7li a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 sahneler… Belki bir ses, belki bir koku…
\nBaz\u0131 fig\u00fcrler \u00a0vard\u0131r, nerde ne zaman hangi \u015fekilde kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131karsa \u00e7\u0131ks\u0131n, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumuzdaki o an\u0131lar\u0131 haf\u0131zalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n derinlerinden, kalbimizin sakl\u0131 k\u00f6\u015felerinden \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r koyar \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze..<\/p>\n
Ge\u00e7en gece Sezen s\u00f6yledi Kavaklar\u2019\u0131\u00a0 bi yerlerden ans\u0131z\u0131n kula\u011f\u0131ma \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131.. Ald\u0131 beni g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumun en g\u00fczel g\u00fcnlerine, o zamanlar \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m, \u015fimdi ise geri d\u00f6nmek i\u00e7in her \u015feyimi verebilece\u011fim yaz g\u00fcnlerine..<\/p>\n
Benim \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumun yaz tatilleri tatil k\u00f6ylerinde, 5y\u0131ld\u0131zl\u0131 otellerde de\u011fil de babam\u0131n tarlalar\u0131nda, dedemin ba\u011flar\u0131nda ge\u00e7erdi..\u00a0 Denize girmek yerine, akan derelere ayaklar\u0131m\u0131 sokard\u0131m.. Akan sular\u0131n can ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 daha \u00e7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015ftim, belki de ondand\u0131r su korkum.. B\u00fcy\u00fck Menderes bir arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n babas\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ondan, bir arkada\u015f\u0131mda karde\u015fini kaybetmi\u015fti b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sulama kanal\u0131nda..
\nSevmem ben denize havuza girmeyi, ama akan bir dere g\u00f6rsem bir yerlerde ayaklar\u0131m\u0131 sokmadan yapamam.. \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumdan ak\u0131p geliyordur belki diye, kim bilir..<\/p>\n
Akan dereler serinletirken ayaklar\u0131m\u0131, g\u00fcne\u015fte kavururdu tenimi, nerden bileyim \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumu kavururmu\u015f, pi\u015firirmi\u015f o g\u00fcne\u015fler…
\n\u00d6\u011fle vakitleri, g\u00fcne\u015fin en yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 vakitler, \u015fezlonglarda \u015femsiyelerin yalanc\u0131 g\u00f6lgeleri de\u011filde.. a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n serin \u00a0g\u00f6lgeleri korurdu g\u00fcne\u015fin yak\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan herkesi..<\/p>\n
Dedemin ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ortas\u0131nda kocaman bir ceviz a\u011fac\u0131 vard\u0131r, \u00f6yle b\u00fcy\u00fck, \u00f6yle heybetli bir a\u011fa\u00e7t\u0131r ki o ceviz. Dedem gibidir. Onun gibi g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc ve sars\u0131lmaz, onun gibi sar\u0131p sarmalayan, onun gibi huzur veren.
\nKa\u00e7 sofra kurulmu\u015ftur babaannemin yemekleriyle g\u00f6lgesinde, ka\u00e7 i\u015f\u00e7i g\u00f6lgesinde su i\u00e7ip \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr etmi\u015ftir kim bilir. Dedem bu sene \u00fcz\u00fcmlerin kar\u0131 zarar\u0131 ne olacak diye oturup bir ba\u015f\u0131na ka\u00e7 kere d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr acaba. Ve babam ka\u00e7 uyku \u00e7ekmi\u015ftir g\u00f6lgesinde..<\/p>\n
Ben aile olmay\u0131 o a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n g\u00f6lgelerinde \u00f6\u011frendim, kom\u015fulu\u011fu yan bah\u00e7edekilerle beraber kurulan sofralarda tatt\u0131m, kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k beklemeden yap\u0131lan iyilikleri, ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bah\u00e7eni yan kom\u015fuya sonsuz g\u00fcvenle emanet edebilmeyi \u00a0o g\u00f6lgelerde izledim.
\nBelki de kitap okumay\u0131 sevmemin nedeni o \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m a\u011fa\u00e7 g\u00f6lgeleridir. Ka\u00e7 kitap bitirmi\u015fimdir, karde\u015fime ka\u00e7 kitap okumu\u015fumdur acaba.
\nVe k\u0131z karde\u015fimle sars\u0131lmaz ba\u011f\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131r o tarlalar\u0131n a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6lgeleri, yaz tatillerimin tek arkada\u015f\u0131yla.
\n\u0130kimizin d\u00fcnyas\u0131yd\u0131 o g\u00f6lgelerdeki oyunlar, abla olman\u0131n sorumlulu\u011fuydu o g\u00f6lgelerden ayr\u0131lmamak, ayr\u0131l\u0131rsakta \u015fapkas\u0131n\u0131 takmak. Akan sudan uzak durmak. Kavgalar\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7ok olmu\u015ftur, ak\u015fam oldu\u011funda art\u0131k eve gitmeyi sar\u0131larak bekledi\u011fimizde.<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 inmezdim a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n tepelerinden, dallardan dallara t\u0131rman\u0131rd\u0131m. Elma kay\u0131s\u0131 erik fark etmezdi, en tepesindeki meyveye ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131mdaki mutlulu\u011fu \u00e7ok az \u015fey vermi\u015ftir bana \u015fimdiye kadar. Bazen kal\u0131rd\u0131m en tepede inemezdim ama hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r mesela. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sa\u011flam dallara basmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015ftim.
\nDallar \u00f6nemliydi, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bir a\u011fa\u00e7la ilk tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda senin i\u00e7in tek \u00f6nemi vard\u0131, o da dallar\u0131na sal\u0131ncak kurulup kurulamayacak olmas\u0131yd\u0131. E\u011fer o sal\u0131ncak kurulursa, b\u00fct\u00fcn yaz\u0131n tek e\u011flencesi olurdu.<\/p>\n
Ve yank\u0131lan sesim;<\/p>\n
\u2018En y\u00fckse\u011fe u\u00e7ur baba!\u2019<\/p>\n
O dala aya\u011f\u0131m de\u011fene kadar sen yine sallasan ke\u015fke beni, annem endi\u015felense, karde\u015fim s\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131 beklese sab\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131kla, ve sen hi\u00e7 durmadan sallasan beni..<\/em><\/p>\n Tarlalar, ba\u011flar, bah\u00e7eler. A\u011fa\u00e7lar. Ve kavaklar.. Ama hala r\u00fczgar esti\u011finde \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131klar\u0131 \u0131sl\u0131klar kulaklar\u0131mda..<\/p>\n Bir gece d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc \u00e7ocuklu\u011fum kavak \u0131sl\u0131klar\u0131 e\u015fli\u011finde, payla\u015fmak istedim. Bu benim \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumdu, Arada \u00e7ocuklu\u011funuza d\u00f6n\u00fcn, sevgiyi ke\u015ffetti\u011finiz o g\u00fcnleri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn ki gelece\u011fe umutla bak\u0131n.<\/p>\n Bana bu umudu tekrar veren o \u015fark\u0131 i\u00e7in te\u015fekk\u00fcrlerim Sezen Aksu\u2019ya.<\/p>\n \u2018Ah kavaklar, ard\u0131mdan \u0131sl\u0131k \u00e7alar..\u2019<\/p>\n YAZAR:<\/em> Beg\u00fcm DO\u011eRAMACI <\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u2018AH KAVAKLAR.. AH KAVAKLAR ARDIMDAN ISLIK \u00c7ALAR\u2019 \u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdan bir yel \u015fimdilere eser, kavaklar\u0131n \u0131sl\u0131klar\u0131 geceme \u00e7alar.. An\u0131lar\u0131m gecelerimi […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":573,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,4],"tags":[17,161,162,12,19,93],"yoast_head":"\n
\nBereketin topraktan geldi\u011fini, sevginin toprakla ye\u015ferdi\u011fini, insanlar\u0131n ekmek paras\u0131n\u0131 topraktan kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, topraktan gelip topra\u011fa gitti\u011fimizi \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim tarlalar..<\/p>\n
\nG\u00f6lgeleriyle, dallar\u0131yla, meyveleriyle \u00e7ocuklu\u011fum a\u011fa\u00e7lar..
\nO y\u00fczden heralde \u015fimdi kesilen her a\u011fa\u00e7ta can\u0131m\u0131n yanmas\u0131.
\nDedem buldu\u011fu her bo\u015flu\u011fa a\u011fa\u00e7 dikerdi, ondan \u00f6\u011frendim a\u011fa\u00e7 dikmeyi, can suyu vermeyi, a\u011fac\u0131ma isim koymay\u0131. Onlara \u00e7ocu\u011fu gibi de\u011fer verdi\u011fini onda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, yere d\u00fc\u015fen \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f meyveyi bile asla atmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve yedi\u011fini, atana da k\u0131zd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131.
\n\u00c7ok a\u011fac\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131 bizim, elma armut ayva vi\u015fne ceviz kay\u0131s\u0131 badem ve belki niceleri.. Hepsinin meyvesini dal\u0131ndan yedim y\u0131kamadan ti\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcme silip, \u015fimdiki meyvelerden tat \u00a0alamamam da belki ondan.<\/p>\n
\nSan\u0131r\u0131m i\u00e7lerinde hi\u00e7bir ba\u011f\u0131m\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m o kavak a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131, bir de\u011feri yoktu \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc benim i\u00e7in, meyvesi yoktu, dal\u0131na sal\u0131ncak kurulam\u0131yordu, zaten g\u00f6lgesi de yoktu o y\u00fczden onunla bir hat\u0131ram yoktu. Evimizin \u00f6n\u00fcnde iki tane kavak a\u011fac\u0131 vard\u0131, neden oradalar d\u0131, dedem neden dikmi\u015fti onlar\u0131 hala bilmem ama, y\u0131llar sonra gitti\u011fimde o a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 orada g\u00f6remeyince nas\u0131l \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc asla unutamam. \u00c7\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131klar\u0131 i\u00e7in kesilmi\u015flerdi.
\nYa\u015flanm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 dedem gibi, art\u0131k yoklard\u0131 babaannem gibi.
\n\u00c7ocuklu\u011fum gibi an\u0131lar\u0131mdalard\u0131 art\u0131k.<\/p>\n
\n\u015eansl\u0131 bir \u00e7ocukmu\u015fum, plastik sal\u0131ncaklar hormonlu meyveler y\u00fcksek apartman bilmezmi\u015fim, bunu yeniden ke\u015ffettim.<\/p>\n
\nUmar\u0131m sizin de kendi g\u00fczel \u00e7ocukluk an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131z gelmi\u015ftir g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcne, g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek hat\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 okudu\u011funuzda.<\/p>\n