(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunma s\u00fcresi yakla\u015f\u0131k olarak 3 dakikad\u0131r.)<\/p>\n
Ahmet Amca, 44 ya\u015f\u0131nda, 20 y\u0131ld\u0131r evli, iki \u00e7ocuk babas\u0131. Uzun y\u0131lard\u0131r madende \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131p evini ge\u00e7indirmek i\u00e7in kendince bir hayat m\u00fccadelesi verdi\u011fi; ailesini ve ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131, g\u00fcnlerini ve aylar\u0131n\u0131 bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n teselliyle avuttu\u011fu bir ya\u015fam\u0131 vard\u0131. Zorluklarla ve ac\u0131yla \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f ya\u015fam\u0131na; madende ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi kazada iki parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmesiyle bir yenisi eklenmi\u015f. Olaydan hemen sonra elini sarm\u0131\u015f, sonra hastaneye kadar s\u0131k\u0131ca tutmu\u015f. Olanca g\u00fcc\u00fcyle di\u015fini s\u0131km\u0131\u015f. Bir yerde g\u00f6zlerini yummu\u015f. Tek bir ya\u015f dahi ak\u0131tmam\u0131\u015f. Devam\u0131nda, y\u0131llar\u0131n yorgunlu\u011funa emekli olu\u015fuyla son vermi\u015f. Bundan 3 sene sonra; iki parma\u011f\u0131ndan fazlas\u0131n\u0131, bir evlad\u0131n\u0131 yitirmi\u015f. Trafik kazas\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. \u0130lk duydu\u011funda kalbi s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f. Bir eliyle ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tutmu\u015f, di\u011fer eliyle telefonu; sesi biraz \u00e7atallanm\u0131\u015f; \u201c\u00d6lm\u00fc\u015f m\u00fc?\u201d Sonra bir i\u00e7 \u00e7ekmi\u015f. \u0130ki g\u00fcn a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7mam\u0131\u015f. Morgda \u00e7ocu\u011funun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hayat\u0131nda ilk defa ok\u015fam\u0131\u015f. Sonra aln\u0131ndan \u00f6yle bir \u00f6pm\u00fc\u015f ki hani evvelce hi\u00e7 yapmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi. Ondan sonra daha \u00e7ok sigara i\u00e7er, daha az konu\u015fur olmu\u015f.<\/p>\n
Birka\u00e7 sene ge\u00e7mi\u015f, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 istemeye gelmi\u015fler. Allah\u2019\u0131n emri, peygamberin kavliyle sormu\u015flar; Ahmet Amca bir \u015fey diyememi\u015f, k\u0131z\u0131na pek d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, ba\u015fka \u015fehre ta\u015f\u0131ns\u0131n istemezmi\u015f ama k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n da iyili\u011fini istermi\u015f. Yutkunmu\u015f, yutkunmu\u015f bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7amam\u0131\u015f. Karde\u015fi girmi\u015f araya, \u201cGen\u00e7ler\u2026\u201d demi\u015f, \u201cBirbirini be\u011fendiyse, bize de hay\u0131rl\u0131 olsun demek d\u00fc\u015fer.\u201d. Ahmet Amca d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f; bir sigara yakm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6zleri yanm\u0131\u015f; sigara duman\u0131n\u0131 uzun uzun \u00e7ekip, a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r vermi\u015f. Ertesi g\u00fcn k\u0131z\u0131 duva\u011f\u0131yla evden \u00e7\u0131kmadan \u00f6nce elini \u00f6pm\u00fc\u015f. Ahmet Amca, bir elini k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n omzuna koyup, yolun a\u00e7\u0131k olsun diyebilmi\u015f. O ak\u015fam bir ba\u015fkaym\u0131\u015f. Elinin be\u015f parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7 i\u00e7e ge\u00e7irip, ba\u015f parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 birbirinin \u00fcst\u00fcnde d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcp durmu\u015f. Ondan sonraki g\u00fcnlerde camdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya daha uzun bakar, \u00e7ay barda\u011f\u0131n\u0131 daha s\u0131k\u0131 tutar olmu\u015f.<\/p>\n
K\u0131z\u0131 evden ayr\u0131ld\u0131ktan sonraki aylardan birinde, sakin ama bir o kadar r\u00fczgarl\u0131 bir gecede; e\u015fi aniden uyanmas\u0131yla yatakta g\u00f6rememi\u015f onu, kalk\u0131p merakl\u0131 g\u00f6zlerle i\u00e7eriye bak\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, cam\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde bulmu\u015f. Karanl\u0131k odan\u0131n i\u00e7inde, sokak lambas\u0131n\u0131n c\u0131l\u0131z turuncu \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131yla renk verdi\u011fi, ya\u011fmurun k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck se\u011firtti\u011fi cam\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde… Birka\u00e7 saniye \u00f6ylece bakt\u0131ktan sonra e\u015finin \u201cUyuyamad\u0131n m\u0131?\u201d deyi\u015fine sessiz kalm\u0131\u015f Ahmet Amca. \u0130\u00e7inde par\u00e7a par\u00e7a yan\u0131p k\u00fcl eden onca ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 anlatacak kelime bulamam\u0131\u015f. Zaten bunun i\u00e7in kelimesi de yokmu\u015f. Kelimeleri ge\u00e7mi\u015f; cama p\u0131t p\u0131t vuran ya\u011fmurun birka\u00e7 damlas\u0131 bile olamam\u0131\u015f. Sanki Ahmet Amcan\u0131n g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131; k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckl\u00fckten beri aile \u00fcyelerinin sert tav\u0131rlar\u0131yla, annesinin \u201caslan o\u011flumlar\u0131yla\u201d, gen\u00e7li\u011finde mahallede esip g\u00fcrlemesiyle, erkekli\u011fiyle, adaml\u0131\u011f\u0131yla ve b\u00fcy\u00fck miktarda; 14 ya\u015f\u0131nda \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi dedesini kaybetti\u011fi g\u00fcn, babas\u0131n\u0131n iki ka\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ukurla\u015fmas\u0131yla ba\u015flay\u0131p, a\u011fz\u0131yla onun kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kesen bir \u00e7ift s\u00f6z\u00fcyle, m\u00fcebbet yemi\u015f. \u201cKar\u0131 gibi a\u011flama.\u201d Kar\u0131 gibi a\u011flayamam\u0131\u015f Ahmet Amca. T\u0131pk\u0131 ilk defa aile evinden ayr\u0131l\u0131p askere gidece\u011fi zaman; omuzlarda, kollarda ya da bol bol el \u00f6pmelerle u\u011furland\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonunda, otob\u00fcs cam\u0131na kafas\u0131n\u0131 dayad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda a\u011flayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi. Sanki annesi olanca ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tek bir gecede ak\u0131t\u0131p, onun yerine de a\u011flam\u0131\u015f. O g\u00fcnden sonra yutkunmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f Ahmet Amca, i\u00e7 \u00e7ekmeyi \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f, sustuk\u00e7a i\u00e7indeki da\u011flar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fctmeyi, mevsimlerini g\u00f6rmezden gelmeyi \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f.<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi; y\u0131llard\u0131r kalbinde biriken k\u00fcllerini, i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcyen koca koca da\u011flar\u0131n\u0131, g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcnde ta\u015fmay\u0131 bekleyen ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131, o\u011flunun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6zlemini koklam\u0131\u015f. G\u00f6zlerini k\u0131rpm\u0131\u015f birka\u00e7 kere, kirpikleri \u0131slanm\u0131\u015f, sonra yummu\u015f tekrar i\u00e7ine\u2026 Sa\u011f elinin \u00fc\u00e7 parma\u011f\u0131yla silmi\u015f g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc. Bir ka\u00e7 damla ya\u015f akm\u0131\u015f, s\u0131cac\u0131k. Yanaklar\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc, tam 40 y\u0131l s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f. Gardiyanlar bir g\u00fcn de olsa, bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na da olsa izin vermi\u015f. Sokak lambas\u0131 utanc\u0131ndan \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015f. G\u00fcn do\u011fmas\u0131n istemi\u015f Ahmet Amca, g\u00fcn do\u011fmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n
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E\u015finin \u201cUyuyamad\u0131n m\u0131?\u201d deyi\u015fine sessiz kalm\u0131\u015f Ahmet Amca. \u0130\u00e7inde par\u00e7a par\u00e7a yan\u0131p k\u00fcl eden onca ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 anlatacak kelime bulamam\u0131\u015f. Zaten bunun i\u00e7in kelimesi de yokmu\u015f<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":83,"featured_media":5119,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,4,1],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n