{"id":3198,"date":"2021-07-01T18:51:50","date_gmt":"2021-07-01T15:51:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.tpocg.org\/blog\/?p=3198"},"modified":"2021-07-01T18:51:55","modified_gmt":"2021-07-01T15:51:55","slug":"zamana-yenilmek","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.tpocg.org\/blog\/zamana-yenilmek","title":{"rendered":"Zamana Yenilmek"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunmas\u0131 yakla\u015f\u0131k 3 dakikad\u0131r.)<br>Birazdan g\u00f6zlerimi kapayaca\u011f\u0131m, muhtemelen hi\u00e7 a\u00e7mamak \u00fczere. Etraf\u0131mdakiler nefesime dikkat kesilmi\u015f beni izliyor, nefes al\u0131\u015fveri\u015fleri benimki ile ahenk i\u00e7inde. Bu halleri komik geliyor, son birka\u00e7 g\u00fcne kadar bu denli \u00f6nemli olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m kimsenin hayat\u0131nda. \u015eimdi her dakika bir ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131n olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 soruluyor. Oysa pek \u00e7ok zaman oldu bug\u00fcnden daha \u00e7ok ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131n oldu\u011fu. \u015eimdi s\u00fcrekli soruyorlar, su ister misin, rahat m\u0131s\u0131n, yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczeltelim mi? Ne b\u00fcy\u00fck yan\u0131lg\u0131dalar, ben kapatt\u0131m bu defteri, veda ediyorum art\u0131k. Bir bardak su i\u00e7mesem de olur, vars\u0131n yast\u0131\u011f\u0131m yamuk olsun.<br>Hi\u00e7 sormuyorlar; eski foto\u011fraflara bakmak ister misin, aramak istedi\u011fin birileri var m\u0131 ya da bize s\u00f6ylemek istedi\u011fin bir \u015feyler, pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131n neler\u2026 K\u0131zg\u0131n de\u011filim sormad\u0131klar\u0131 i\u00e7in kabul etmek istemiyorlar gidece\u011fimi.<br>Bu yatakta y\u0131llar \u00f6nce yat\u0131yor olsam, durum \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 olurdu. Yeti\u015ftirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m son s\u00f6zlerimi, durmadan konu\u015furdum yine de yeti\u015ftirmezdim. Ve y\u0131llar \u00f6nce yat\u0131yor olsam bu yatakta, \u00e7ok korkard\u0131m. Bir \u015feyleri eksik yapm\u0131\u015f olmaktan. Herkes bana bakarken beni dinleyin dedim yava\u015f\u00e7a.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul><li>Ben hep korktum biliyor musunuz?<\/li><li>Neden korktun?<\/li><li>K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fcm b\u00fcy\u00fcmekten korktum, kaybetmekten korktum, g\u00fcn\u00fcn bitmesinden, haftan\u0131n son g\u00fcn\u00fcnden, yeni y\u0131la girmekten korktum. \u00c7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131m zamana kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ok \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131m. Hi\u00e7 kazanamayaca\u011f\u0131m bir m\u00fccadeleydi benimkisi. Taraflar\u0131 belirli olmayan. Ko\u015ftum, zaman kar\u015f\u0131 ko\u015ftum. H\u0131zl\u0131 davrand\u0131m, az uyudum, saniyeleri tuttum, saatleri durdurdum. B\u00f6yle yap\u0131nca zaman ge\u00e7mez sand\u0131m. Yazd\u0131m, \u00e7izdim, zamana yeti\u015fmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. G\u00f6remedi\u011fim bir \u015fey vard\u0131. Ben yoruldu\u011fumda, d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde zaman hi\u00e7 durmuyordu. E\u015fit g\u00fcce sahip de\u011fildik ama ben \u00f6yle sand\u0131m.<\/li><\/ul>\n\n\n\n<p>Onu s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 tutmak hi\u00e7 b\u0131rakmamak istedim, saklamak kimsenin bulamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir yere. Unutmak nereye saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 unutmak, sonra unuttu\u011fumu unutmak\u2026 Hep ne istedim biliyor musunuz? Yol almak, zamans\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa do\u011fru yol almak. Takvimlerden silinse g\u00fcnler, saatler bir \u00f6l\u00fc kadar hareketsiz kalsa, g\u00fcn hi\u00e7 batmasa. Ve ben bir saniye i\u00e7in o anda kalsam, zaman\u0131 ya\u015fasam. Sonra yeniden d\u00f6nse d\u00fcnya. Ve ben bir \u00f6m\u00fcr o saniyeyi arasam, arasam da bulamasam. Ko\u015fsam, o bir saniyenin ard\u0131ndan ko\u015fsam. Zaman ak\u0131p gitse ve ben korkmasam. \u0130\u015fte ben hep bunu istedim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonra, bir g\u00fcn aynaya tak\u0131ld\u0131 g\u00f6zlerim. Y\u00fcz\u00fcm k\u0131r\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, sa\u00e7lar\u0131m beyaz, g\u00f6zlerim ilk g\u00fcnk\u00fc kadar korkak. Aynan\u0131n kenar\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir foto\u011fraf, zamans\u0131z bir ana ait. Foto\u011frafa bakarken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, zaman\u0131n pe\u015finden ko\u015farken kaybetti\u011fim zaman\u0131. Kopar\u0131lan takvim yapraklar\u0131 de\u011fildi eksilen, bendim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gitsem bulsam dedim, t\u00fcm takvim yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 ve suya atsam, aksa m\u00fcrekkep, da\u011f\u0131lsa t\u00fcm yaz\u0131lar. Tutsak oldu\u011fum g\u00fcnler yol alsa sonsuzlu\u011fa, bir hi\u00e7 olsalar orada. \u0130\u015fte benim t\u00fcm hikayem bu. \u00d6nce \u00e7ok korktum zaman\u0131n ge\u00e7mesinden. Her saat benden bir par\u00e7a kopard\u0131. Saklamak istedim onu, kimsenin bulamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir yere. Sonra anlad\u0131m onu tutamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131. Ve cesurca ya\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131m, belki de \u00e7aresizce\u2026 \u015eimdi zamans\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde ya\u015f\u0131yorum, her \u015fey bulan\u0131k. Ve gidiyorum zaman\u0131n i\u00e7inde unutulmaya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ge\u00e7 oldu ama anlad\u0131m, ne zamana h\u00fckmedebilece\u011fimi ne de onu saklamak i\u00e7in biriktirdi\u011fim an\u0131lara. An\u0131lar, art\u0131k hepsi birer g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131. Ama hayat bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck tebess\u00fcm dudaklar\u0131mda. \u015eimdi gidiyorum, zamana yenildi\u011fimi bilerek. Veda ediyorum zamana, en g\u00fczel an\u0131n ya\u015fan\u0131lan oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenerek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p> Yazar: Dilara \u015eahino\u011flu <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u015eimdi gidiyorum, zamana yenildi\u011fimi bilerek. 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