(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunmas\u0131 yakla\u015f\u0131k 3 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(Yaz\u0131y\u0131 okurken \u00e7ocuklu\u011funa hasret kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z i\u00e7in Sema Moritz \u2013 Hasret dinleyebilirsiniz.) Sabah saat 8. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcyerek uyand\u0131m. G\u00f6zlerim \u00e7ok s\u0131zl\u0131yor. Uyuman\u0131n dinlendirici bir eylem oldu\u011funu a\u011flayarak uyuyan ve korkarak uyanan kimseye anlatamazs\u0131n\u0131z. Huzursuz bir sabaha uyanmak bayg\u0131nl\u0131ktan ay\u0131l\u0131yor olmaya \u00e7ok benziyor. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Annemin yeni de\u011fi\u015ftirdi\u011fi nevresimin kokusu, geceden masam\u0131n \u00fczerinde kalan bo\u015f kahve bardaklar\u0131, kitaplar\u0131m ve mutfaktan gelen b\u00f6rek kokusuyla birlikte sesini duydu\u011fum g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fmeler\u2026 G\u00fcvendeyim ama g\u00fcvendeler mi tela\u015f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc yine i\u00e7ime. Bir t\u0131kla d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u00f6b\u00fcr ucundaki her felaketten haberimin oldu\u011funa lanet etti\u011fim telefonumun alarm\u0131 \u00f6t\u00fcyor. Odam\u0131n i\u00e7inde huzursuz bir sessizlikle oturuyorum. G\u00f6zlerimi s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 kapatt\u0131m. \u00c7ok istedi\u011fim bir \u015feyin hayalini kuraca\u011f\u0131m zaman b\u00f6yle yapar\u0131m. T\u00fcm \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n doyas\u0131ya e\u011flendi\u011fi, saatlerce konu\u015ftu\u011fu, anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131, oyun kurdu\u011fu, istediklerini yiyebildi\u011fi ve ailesiyle birlikte oldu\u011fu bir yer olsa. Kilitlesem oraya t\u00fcm \u00e7ocuklar\u0131. Kimse \u00e7\u0131karamasa. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc biliyorum, \u00e7\u0131karmak isterler. B\u00f6yle bir yer sadece cennet olmas\u0131n l\u00fctfen Allah\u2019\u0131m. \u00c7ocukluktan sonra, temiz hayal g\u00fcc\u00fc d\u00fcnya kavgas\u0131yla kirlendik\u00e7e insan\u0131n umudu ete kemi\u011fe b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcp a\u011flamaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor. \u201c\u00c7ocuk de\u011filiz.\u201d dedik\u00e7e ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yor i\u00e7imizde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
L\u00fctfen. L\u00fctfen, bug\u00fcnden itibaren b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7ocuklar sadece \u015f\u0131mar\u0131kl\u0131ktan a\u011flas\u0131n. Bug\u00fcnden itibaren her birinin tek derdi kahvalt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 bitirip bir an \u00f6nce oyuna d\u00f6nmek olsun. Oyuncaklar\u0131n\u0131 kaybettikleri tek yer oyun parklar\u0131 olsun. Sava\u015f enkaz\u0131 alt\u0131nda kaybolan tek bir oyuncak g\u00f6rmeye daha takatim kalmad\u0131. Her sabah \u00f6p\u00fclerek uyand\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131nlar. Anne ve babas\u0131yla doya doya oynayabilsin hepsi. Hatta onlara k\u00fcsecek vakti bile bulabiliyor olsunlar. Bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n bencilli\u011fi \u201cBu oyuncaklar benim veremem.\u201d c\u00fcmlesinde kilitli kals\u0131n \u00e7ocuklar i\u00e7in. Daha fazlas\u0131yla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmas\u0131nlar. Daha fazlas\u0131n\u0131n bedelini \u00f6demesinler. Oyun oynarken unutsunlar bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Tek \u015fahit olduklar\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm yere d\u00fc\u015fen \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc olsun. Hepsinin g\u00fclerek hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kap\u0131s\u0131, penceresi yere inmemi\u015f yuvalar\u0131 olsun. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ya\u015f\u0131 sadece karde\u015f kavgas\u0131na m\u00fcsait olan bu \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n d\u00fcnya kavgas\u0131n\u0131n ortas\u0131nda kalmas\u0131na dayanam\u0131yorum. Sessiz \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k atmak zorunda kalan her \u00e7ocu\u011fun hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131nda sa\u011f\u0131rla\u015fan bu d\u00fcnyada, her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn daha da zorla\u015f\u0131yor ya\u015famak. Uykular\u0131ndan uyand\u0131ran tek g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc g\u00f6k g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fc olacakken, oyuncaklar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131ran tek g\u00fc\u00e7 kendi g\u00fc\u00e7leri olacakken, annelerinden ay\u0131ran tek sebep uykular\u0131 olacakken, safl\u0131\u011f\u0131n en g\u00fczel \u00f6rnekleri iken d\u00fcnya kavgas\u0131n\u0131n ortas\u0131nda a\u011flay\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n kaybolmas\u0131na dayanam\u0131yorum. Konu sevgi oldu\u011funda, koskoca d\u00fcnyay\u0131 iki uca a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 ellerine s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ran bir avu\u00e7 \u00e7ocu\u011fu neden d\u00fcnyaya s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ram\u0131yoruz? \u201cOyuncaklarla oynay\u0131n, insanlarla de\u011fil.\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rabilsem ke\u015fke \u00e7ocuklardan b\u00fcy\u00fck oldu\u011funu zanneden sevgisiz herkese. Ben i\u00e7imdeki \u00e7ocu\u011fa nas\u0131l anlataca\u011f\u0131m olanlar\u0131? Nas\u0131l uyanaca\u011f\u0131z yeni g\u00fcne? Sa\u00e7lar\u0131na rengarenk tokalar tak\u0131p imrendi\u011fimiz k\u0131z \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n karart\u0131lan yeni g\u00fcn\u00fcne nas\u0131l uyanaca\u011f\u0131z? \u00c7ar\u015faflar sererek \u00e7ad\u0131rlar kurup oynamay\u0131 hayal ederken minicik bedenlerini \u00e7ar\u015fafa sararak g\u00f6m\u00fcyor olman\u0131n hesab\u0131n\u0131 nas\u0131l verece\u011fiz yeni g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcze? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ah \u00e7ocuk getir ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ocuk sana seksek oynamay\u0131 \u00f6\u011freteyim. Ellerine ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fcs\u00fc yak\u0131\u015fmaz. Getir sana dokuz ta\u015f oynamay\u0131 da \u00f6\u011freteyim. En fazla bu kadar havaya at\u0131p geri tutacak kadar al ellerine ta\u015f\u0131. Gel sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 toplayay\u0131m. Gecenin bir vakti \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klarla uyan\u0131p oradan oraya g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn i\u00e7in de\u011fil, arkada\u015flar\u0131nla konu\u015fup oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7in da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r sa\u00e7lar\u0131n. Gel merhem s\u00fcreyim yaralar\u0131na, d\u00fcnya kavgas\u0131nda can\u0131na kastettiklerinden de\u011fil parkta arkada\u015flar\u0131nla oynarken d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden akm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r kan\u0131n. Kan\u0131n\u0131 ak\u0131tmadan da d\u00fcnyay\u0131 senin i\u00e7in kirletenler, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc senden \u00e7alanlar senden daha g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc de\u011filler. Tertemiz d\u00fcnyanda \u201dTan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n amcalarla konu\u015fma, bilmedi\u011fin insanlardan \u015feker alma.\u201d diyerek k\u00f6t\u00fcleri amca etti\u011fimiz, hassas noktan\u0131n \u015feker oldu\u011funu bildi\u011fimiz \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n kirine al\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Zihinlerdeki ve kalplerdeki kutupla\u015fmayla zarar verdikleri \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n arkalar\u0131ndan a\u011flarken tek bir d\u00fcnyaya sahip oldu\u011fumuzu hepsini ayn\u0131 d\u00fcnya \u00fczerine g\u00f6m\u00fcnce anl\u0131yoruz. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ah! Gel \u00e7ocuk \u00e7i\u00e7eklere saray\u0131m seni. Kocaman \u00f6peyim. Merhametine ihtiyac\u0131m var. \u0130stikbalimi kucaklamaya, gelece\u011fime bakmaya ihtiyac\u0131m var. Sar\u0131l bana s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131. B\u0131rakmayal\u0131m birbirimizi. Ben hasta olay\u0131m sen doktor. \u0130yile\u015ftir beni kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z sevginle. \u201c\u0130\u011fne vuraca\u011f\u0131m ac\u0131mayacak.\u201d demene de gerek yok. Benim can\u0131m\u0131 daha fazla bir \u015fey ac\u0131tamaz art\u0131k. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yazar: Amine Nadide Erg\u00fcn<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u201dKonu sevgi oldu\u011funda, koskoca d\u00fcnyay\u0131 iki uca a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 ellerine s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ran bir avu\u00e7 \u00e7ocu\u011fu neden d\u00fcnyaya s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ram\u0131yoruz? Ben i\u00e7imdeki \u00e7ocu\u011fa nas\u0131l anlataca\u011f\u0131m olanlar\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":53,"featured_media":3115,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,4],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n