(Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n okunmas\u0131 yakla\u015f\u0131k 3 dakika s\u00fcrmektedir.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Severek izledi\u011fim gezi program\u0131 \u00c7ok Gezenti\u2019nin sunucusu Burak Akkul, pek \u00e7ok b\u00f6l\u00fcmde \u015fahane \u015fehir manzaralar\u0131 sunan y\u00fcksek kulelere \u00e7\u0131kar ve “Tanr\u0131 insana u\u00e7mas\u0131 i\u00e7in mutluluk vermi\u015f.” der. Mutluluktan u\u00e7tu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm zamanlar oldu elbette ama itiraf etmeliyim ki kendimi u\u00e7maya en yak\u0131n hissetti\u011fim anlar \u00f6zg\u00fcr oldu\u011fumu hissetti\u011fim anlard\u0131r. G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde s\u00fcz\u00fclen bir ku\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde ne kadar mutlu oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmem, ilk akl\u0131ma gelen ne kadar \u00f6zg\u00fcr oldu\u011fudur. Ben de \u00f6yle olmak isterim. Bana dertsiz, her an her yere gidebilecek ve kimseye ne yapmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini sormayacak, anlatmayacak gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen o ku\u015fa benzemek isterim. \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck bu mu? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ger\u00e7ekten de nedir ki \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck, y\u00fczy\u0131llar\u0131n tart\u0131\u015fma konusu olmaktan ba\u015fka? \u0130nsan ger\u00e7ekten \u00f6zg\u00fcr m\u00fcd\u00fcr? \u00d6zg\u00fcr m\u00fc do\u011far\u0131z yoksa \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc sonradan m\u0131 elde ederiz? \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc biz mi s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131z, di\u011ferleri mi? Nice soruya ra\u011fmen net bir cevab\u0131m\u0131z yok. Kendi kabul ettiklerimiz var yaln\u0131zca. Benim kabul etmeyi se\u00e7ti\u011fim tan\u0131m, kalbimin h\u0131zla \u00e7arpt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve ko\u015farken avaz\u0131m \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m anda \u00f6zg\u00fcr oldu\u011fumdur. Herkesten uzakta, tek ba\u015f\u0131ma ve t\u00fcm kurallardan azat oldu\u011fum zaman \u00f6zg\u00fcr\u00fcm. Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n var olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n, ev kiras\u0131n\u0131n art\u0131p artmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n, giydi\u011fim elbisenin ortama uygun olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6nemini yitirdi\u011fi and\u0131r \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck. Beni ba\u011flayan maddi ve manevi her zinciri kopard\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve durdurulamaz bir h\u0131zda ko\u015ftu\u011fum zaman. Bo\u011faz\u0131mdaki yumrunun kayboldu\u011fu ve ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p kahkahalarla g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm zaman. \u0130nsanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n en saf halindeyimdir, belki de en ilkel halinde. O zaman u\u00e7ar\u0131m. Ayaklar\u0131m yerdedir belki ama zihnim g\u00f6klerdedir. Mart\u0131larla, kartallarla, kargalarla beraber ben\u2026 Kanatlar\u0131m r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n serinli\u011fiyle dolar ama i\u00e7im s\u0131cac\u0131kt\u0131r. Mutluluk, heyecan, heves, sevgi, hepsi kar\u0131\u015f\u0131r birbirine. \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn hissi bu harmandan gelir. Tad\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015feye benzemedi\u011fi bir harman, e\u015fsiz bir lezzet. Kendim oldu\u011fumu hissederim o an. Benli\u011fimle tan\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131m, onu kucaklar kanatlar\u0131m alt\u0131na al\u0131r\u0131m. \u00d6zg\u00fcrce ben olurum ve utanmam. O a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck kalkar omuzlar\u0131mdan. Beni bulutlardan al\u0131koyan, her kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131\u015f\u0131mda a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7eken utan\u00e7 y\u00fck\u00fc yok olur. Cennetime do\u011fru u\u00e7ar\u0131m adeta. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Peki neden vazge\u00e7ilir \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fckten? Neden cennetimin kap\u0131s\u0131ndan geri d\u00f6nerim? Niye onca insana ihtiyac\u0131m var? \u0130\u015fte bu da benim paradoksum. Sevdiklerimle olmak i\u00e7in vazge\u00e7erim \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fckten. H\u0131rslar\u0131m\u0131n pe\u015finden gitmek, korkular\u0131m\u0131 yenmek, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 gidermek i\u00e7in. \u0130nsan\u0131n ger\u00e7ekten de sosyal bir hayvan oldu\u011funu kabul etmek zorunda kal\u0131r\u0131m. Di\u011ferleri olmadan anlams\u0131zla\u015f\u0131r\u0131m, onlara kavu\u015fmak isterim. Yaln\u0131z u\u00e7an bir ku\u015f de\u011fil de s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn bir par\u00e7as\u0131 olmak isterim zaman zaman. O halde nas\u0131l olur da \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck insan i\u00e7in vazge\u00e7ilmezdir diyebilirim. Her an ondan vazge\u00e7en ben de\u011fil miyim? Belki de as\u0131l soru \u015fudur: \u0130nsan asl\u0131nda neyi ister? Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n e\u015fli\u011findeki \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc m\u00fc yoksa ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n sevgisi alt\u0131nda k\u00f6leli\u011fi mi? Birinden birini se\u00e7ebilir miyim bilmiyorum ama ikisi de olmadan yapamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 biliyorum. Kim bilir, belki de \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn \u00e7eli\u015fkisini sonsuzlu\u011fa ta\u015f\u0131makt\u0131r varolu\u015fumun amac\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Pardina, Javier. (Foto\u011fraf\u00e7\u0131). (2015, A\u011fustos, 30). Bird Flying In The Sky [dijital g\u00f6rsel]. al\u0131nt\u0131d\u0131r https:\/\/www.stocksy.com\/732753\/bird-flying-in-the-sky ”\u0130nsan asl\u0131nda neyi ister: Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n e\u015fli\u011findeki \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc m\u00fc yoksa ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n sevgisi alt\u0131nda k\u00f6leli\u011fi mi?”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":51,"featured_media":2763,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,4],"tags":[750,201],"yoast_head":"\n
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