Belki 20 ya\u015f\u0131ndas\u0131n, belki 40, belki de 80. Var m\u0131 bir amac\u0131n? \u00dcniversiteyi bitirmek, i\u015f bulmak, evlenmek de\u011fil bahsetti\u011fim. \u00d6l\u00fcme ramak kala \u201c\u0130yi ki!..\u201d diyebilece\u011fin bir \u015feyler\u2026 \u201cBen bunun i\u00e7in ya\u015fad\u0131m.\u201d diyebilece\u011fin bir ama\u00e7\u2026 Bir ideal, bir inan\u00e7 ya da belki \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck\u2026 \u00dc\u00e7 noktalar\u0131n sonu yok; konu ya\u015fama amac\u0131na gelince c\u00fcmleler pek sonlanm\u0131yor, hep yetersiz ve bazen anlams\u0131z.<\/p>\n
Ama\u00e7lar\u0131 olanlar erdemli insanlar m\u0131d\u0131r?\u00a0 Bir yola adanm\u0131\u015f \u00f6m\u00fcrler kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 verebilir. Neyin kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131; d\u00fcnyada bize verilenlerin kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, t\u00fckettiklerimizin kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Borcumuz olan\u0131 \u00f6demek erdemli bir davran\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Bir amac\u0131m\u0131z olmazsa kan emen bir sivrisinekten fark\u0131m\u0131z m\u0131 kal\u0131r? D\u00fcnya nimetlerini s\u00f6m\u00fcrenler olmaz m\u0131y\u0131z? Sivrisinekten biraz fazla, insandan \u00e7ok daha az.<\/p>\n
Okuyorsun, kariyer yap\u0131yorsun. Ya \u201ckariyer\u201d denen \u015fey ger\u00e7ekten bir 20. y\u00fczy\u0131l icad\u0131ysa?* Ama\u00e7s\u0131z kariyerler ger\u00e7ekten yeni y\u00fczy\u0131l sa\u00e7mal\u0131klar\u0131. Ama\u00e7s\u0131z emekler\u2026 Bol alk\u0131\u015f, yapay \u00f6vg\u00fcler, dolu bir c\u00fczdan; d\u00fcnyay\u0131 daha \u00e7ok t\u00fcketmek i\u00e7in gerekenlerin hepsi ama\u00e7s\u0131z bir kariyerin getirileri. Ama\u00e7l\u0131 kariyere ula\u015fmak nas\u0131l m\u00fcmk\u00fcn? Ama\u00e7lar\u0131 olan insanlar hep ac\u0131lar \u00fczerine mi yeti\u015fir? Amac\u0131m\u0131 bulmak i\u00e7in d\u00fcnyadan tokat m\u0131 yemeliyim? \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm elimden al\u0131n\u0131nca sokaklarda y\u00fckselen hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131m m\u0131 olmal\u0131 kariyerim? Gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek yerine yapay \u0131\u015f\u0131klar alt\u0131nda bilincini kaybedercesine da\u011f\u0131tan gen\u00e7lerden biri benim \u00e7ocu\u011fum oldu\u011funda m\u0131 engel olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmal\u0131y\u0131m bu d\u00fczene? Ya da insanlardan darbe yedi\u011fimde mi do\u011faya odaklamal\u0131y\u0131m kariyerimi?<\/p>\n
Yeralt\u0131ndan notlar m\u0131 yazmal\u0131y\u0131m d\u00fcnyaya; yoksa insanlar\u0131n ula\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131 da\u011flardan m\u0131 bakmal\u0131y\u0131m a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya? Hangisi getirecek bana temiz nefesi? Dostoyevski\u2019nin isimsiz kahraman\u0131 m\u0131, Christopher McCandless\u2019\u0131n do\u011fada buldu\u011fu \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck m\u00fc? Dibe bat\u0131p bo\u011fulunca m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kacak i\u00e7imdeki ama\u00e7, yoksa etraftaki havay\u0131 sadece ben soluyacak kadar \u00f6zg\u00fcr olunca m\u0131?<\/p>\n
Bulam\u0131yorum. Ne yeralt\u0131nday\u0131m ne de g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde. Bana sunulan hayat\u0131 itaat edercesine ya\u015famaya devam ediyorum. \u00d6lmeden amac\u0131n\u0131 bulabilen insanlar kadar \u015fansl\u0131 olacak m\u0131y\u0131m? \u201c\u0130yi ki!…\u201d diyebilecek miyim \u00f6lmeden \u00f6nce? Belki\u2026 Demi\u015ftim, \u00fc\u00e7 noktalara kald\u0131m yine; yetersiz ve \u00e7o\u011fu zaman anlams\u0131z\u2026<\/p>\n
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***At\u0131flar Dostoyevski\u2019nin \u201cYeralt\u0131ndan Notlar\u201d\u0131 (1864) ve Jon Krakauer\u2019in \u201cYabana Do\u011fru\u201dsu (1995) \u00fczerine yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n
YAZAR:<\/em> Hale \u0130pek KAYIKLIK<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Belki 20 ya\u015f\u0131ndas\u0131n, belki 40, belki de 80. Var m\u0131 bir amac\u0131n? \u00dcniversiteyi bitirmek, i\u015f bulmak, evlenmek de\u011fil […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":19,"featured_media":1334,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,4],"tags":[17,293,374,12,19,327],"yoast_head":"\n